thankfully i have never brought anyone into it
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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To my friends, some reflections...........
by JPandelo ini have had a week to reflect on my life and was thinking about what i have seen, what i am going through, and where i am going.
i know many of you here experience unbelievable pain, suffering, anger, depression, and disbelief.
i have lived with these myself.
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To my friends, some reflections...........
by JPandelo ini have had a week to reflect on my life and was thinking about what i have seen, what i am going through, and where i am going.
i know many of you here experience unbelievable pain, suffering, anger, depression, and disbelief.
i have lived with these myself.
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I have had a week to reflect on my life and was thinking about what I have seen, what I am going through, and where I am going. I know many of you here experience unbelievable pain, suffering, anger, depression, and disbelief. I have lived with these myself. I know many of us also have happiness, joy, and a sense of freedom which is hard to put into words. I live this today. My deepest sorrow extends to a very close loved one whom I see struggling to find self worth, a positive self image, and a guilt only religion (Watchtower) can inflict.
It makes me think of the days I wanted to be an elder. I was an idealist who wanted to use my pained experiences to help those that underwent the sadness I see my loved one going through now. As an elder I wanted to take on my congregation members pain so they would not have to suffer anymore. A kind word, an encouraging scripture, a compassionate glance into their heartbroken eyes. I wanted to be Jehovah's instrument for helping those of his sheep that were truly in pain with broken spirits and guilt ridden hearts.
What I have seen the Watchtower turn elders, overseers, and the governing body themselves into are cold shells of human beings that care not for their flock. It is about position, rank, power, money, and ego. It is for this reason it has made me ashamed of what they have become, and what I wanted to aspire to. So what happens now? How do we pick up the pieces and go on? Where do we go from here? The answers are different for each one of us. We all have a calling in our deepest part of our souls, it calls out to us when we actually listen for it. My place in the scheme of things at 27 years of age is not carved in stone as of yet. What i do know I will share and maybe it will help some and maybe it's just interesting reading for others.
With much of my life ahead of me I ask myself: Should I act on the vengenge I feel in my heart and expose the Watchtower for the liars they really are? Do I want to take precious quality time away from my own family to pursue what I feel is justice for those who have been intentionally wronged? Should I turn my back, count my losses or in my case gains, and ignore the Watchtower? Can I do all of the above? I believe my name is Justin for a reason as it is derived from the Latin meaning for "just, virtuous, upright, true, justice". I have always had this sense of justice my whole life, and it has gotten stronger as I have grown older.
I have much anger to let go of and originally I wanted my constructive anger to be pointed at the Society to seek Justice for what has been transgressed against the Pandelo name. As I think clearer now I feel I should leave it behind and dedicate my life into my family. To bring a child into this world someday without the thought of this horrible nightmare my family and I have lived. My sisters Cori and Jenna, and my brother Brett and myself are the new generation of Pandelos'. I want our generation to wipe the slate clean and bring the future generation a deep sense of family happiness and oneness with their Creator without the guilt of an organized religion crippling their future.
When thinking about my children's future and their children's future I realize that now is the time for the decision of what to do with my family's Jehovah's Witness past. I think for the good of my family I will let it go. I don't want this anger anymore. I don't want the 12 years of insomnia anymore. I don't want to take time away from those who I love anymore. Besides the Watchtower will fall on its own without my help. We will see it in our lifetime. The signs are here. The news media will undoubtedly have a negative effect on the WT. I say continue to expose what needs to be exposed. But the media will not secure the end of the WT. They will without a doubt destroy themselves, on their own.
Their policies are both hypocritical and contradictory. Below is just a tip of the iceberg:
United Nations Cover-up
http://www.globalpolicy.org/ngos/ngo-un/rest-un/2001/1030j.htm
Blood Cover-up
http://www.ajwrb.org/basics/abandon.shtml
Financial Cover-up
http://www.watchtowernews.org/france.htm
http://pages.globetrotter.net/mleblank/org/wtbts19981997.html
Sexual Abuse Cover-up
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/forum/thread.asp?id=27801&site=3
The above "conspiracies" within the Org. are just the beginning. We still have the long awaited Armageddon to go. The 70-80 yrs is basically up. Now what? Undoubtedly new light. There is a pattern here however, and the weak minded who continue to follow after they have been exposed to WT being caught with their pants down so many times will either wake up or die out. There is no future in a lie that is called the truth and hence we have the dissolving of the WT. This is of course if the government doesn't beat them to it.
Regardless, I can rant and rave until the end of the WT and waste half my life on something that will not reward me in the end, or I can start investing my time in my family now and reap the benefits of a truly rewarding life in what Frank Sinatra calls the "Golden warm September of my Years".
Let me close by saying this is my decision, and those who battle for justice and good will always have a friend in me. I applaud the work you do and a piece of me lives through you. I just want to make up for all those lost years of family time now before they are gone. If I throw away those years on a battle against the WT instead of tending to my family, the WT would truly have robbed me from my entire life. My love and compassion extend to all of those on this forum who have been wounded and left for dead by the WT. May your minds and spirits be strong, and the loves that still surround you help you appreciate what a beautiful life you have to look forward to. May Jehovah bless and watch over you all tonight.
Love,
Justin
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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Just Saw StarWars Episode II
by Reborn2002 inonly one word is sufficient to describe this film =.
it is not religious persecution for an informed person to expose publicly a certain religion as being false, thus allowing persons to see the difference between false religion and true religion.
wt 11/15/1963 page 688 paragraph 3
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intense movie, saw it at 12:01am here in nj and thank god they shut jar jar up.
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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Psychdigg your presence requested
by JPandelo inpsychdigg,.
i watch you post these opinions all over this forum and i have yet to see you address any real questions.
you may have a problem with bill bowen and the work he does, but you fail to provide a good enough reason why.
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Psychdigg,
I watch you post these opinions all over this forum and I have yet to see you address any real questions. You may have a problem with Bill Bowen and the work he does, but you fail to provide a good enough reason why. Yea maybe his numbers are off plus or minus however, you bring nothing to the table yourself. I can say from past REAL LIFE experience that the molestation problem is VERY REAL.
I hope you never have to go thru what our family did because you my friend would have never lasted. You know its bad when your elders make statements like: "if I were in your situation I would have left a long time ago" or "do you want me to lose my position as an elder for questioning the society on their righteous judgement?". Firstly that statement just shows we had more faith in Jehovah and the Watchtower than our own elders, secondly our own elders did not want to question the Society knowing that New Light (covering up a past screw up on the Governing Body's part)could have been a viable solution to our problems.
You people make me sick with your unrealistic views of the Organization. They have you so blindly under their thumb that you would probably die for them right now thinking Jehovah God himself will meet you on the other side of death. The fact remains you are nothing to anyone at the Watchtower but a donation, a publisher, some monthly hours, and meeting attendance. No more no less. God forbid you hit bad times like we did you will wise up quick. If dropping you in another country with an instant family of witnesses is the ideal in your head that gets you through your day than good luck to you. Just know the Watchtower you fight so hard to protect is not gonna have your back when you need it the most and then where will you be?
Trust me I am a nice guy, and if you want to really discuss this with an open mind come to NY or NJ and we will have a beer on me no hard feelings. I just hate to see you fight so hard to save us when its you who really are in need of saving. I see alot of myself in your posts as I was the Watchtower idealist who wanted to help everyone see. In retrospect I was wrong and I am trying to do something right now. Again no hard feelings and if you are so inclined I have a beer here with your name on it.
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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by JPandelo injustin,.
as an old friend of your dad (who was pinky when i knew him best and a damn good ballplayer), your beautiful essay touched me deeply.
i can but dimly imagine the nightmare you folks have lived trhough for these many years.
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Justin,
As an old friend of your dad (who was Pinky when I knew him best and a damn good ballplayer), your beautiful essay touched me deeply. I can but dimly imagine the nightmare you folks have lived trhough for these many years. You and yours are dearly loved. God Bless You.
After seeing the above post in one of my postings I was curious as was my dad as to who you are. You may email me anytime.Thanks
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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Schibolet this is 4 U
by JPandelo inschibolet, .
again you fall into a category i mentioned before.
the one with the simplistic answers for the complicated problems.
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Also my fight is not against JR Brown I was just making the point I have no problem facing down those that would smear my family and friends. You here who support us I consider my friends and I would be honored to fight for your cause.
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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Schibolet this is 4 U
by JPandelo inschibolet, .
again you fall into a category i mentioned before.
the one with the simplistic answers for the complicated problems.
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Schibolet,
Again you fall into a category I mentioned before. The one with the simplistic answers for the complicated problems. In your ignorance you speak of me taking my fight to Jehovah God himself. Then again I am willing to lay odds on the bet that you would have been the one to counsel Jesus for not waiting on Jehovah to clean out his temple. I in no way compare myself to Jesus, however by his example I proactively fight to remove as he did the things that smear God's name. Just as he rid the temple of the moneychangers so too today we should remove the uncleanliness from whats left of his current temple. Beleive me Jehovah knows when to give up on the people he once backed when they use his name in vein, the bible is full of those examples.
It is armchair generals like yourself that feel you are carrying the torch for God believing He stands right behind you ready to mete out his judicial judgement against the people like myself and others on this board. Just a word to the wise though, Jehovah is not standing behind you anymore. Look in your own backyard and put yourself in his shoes. If you were Supreme Creator would you associate yourself with an organization that to date has 23,720 child molesters on file. Wake up and talk to me when you have done some homework. Don't bother those of us who try to live God's way and are shunned for it. Faith without works is dead my friend.
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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Hey all I invite you to a little experiment.......
by JPandelo inas i am sure most of you know my parents were told they were to be disfellowshipped by roger eisenhuth and steve stripling over the telephone today.
yes we know they were disfellowshipped for apostasy however, is'nt it curious that they were not provided an explanation for how the elder body came to their decision.
i personally think that it is something that is truly deserving of an answer.
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Simon its ok I am kinda of new and am unfamiliar with the rules of the board. I apologize in my hastiness if I broke any rules. Thanks everybody for your help though.
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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Hey all I invite you to a little experiment.......
by JPandelo inas i am sure most of you know my parents were told they were to be disfellowshipped by roger eisenhuth and steve stripling over the telephone today.
yes we know they were disfellowshipped for apostasy however, is'nt it curious that they were not provided an explanation for how the elder body came to their decision.
i personally think that it is something that is truly deserving of an answer.
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Thanks folks, I know this is not for everyone, however I am not ready to divorce, I want alimony ;)
Thanks for the support alamb
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin
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Hey all I invite you to a little experiment.......
by JPandelo inas i am sure most of you know my parents were told they were to be disfellowshipped by roger eisenhuth and steve stripling over the telephone today.
yes we know they were disfellowshipped for apostasy however, is'nt it curious that they were not provided an explanation for how the elder body came to their decision.
i personally think that it is something that is truly deserving of an answer.
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As I am sure most of you know my parents were told they were to be disfellowshipped by Roger Eisenhuth and Steve Stripling over the telephone today. Yes we know they were disfellowshipped for Apostasy however, is'nt it curious that they were not provided an explanation for how the elder body came to their decision. I personally think that it is something that is truly deserving of an answer. In true form once again the Watchtower and it's representatives show the pattern of cover up by sweeping my parents under the rug with the tidy label Apostasy.
I remember a while back there was some commotion about the Watchtower belonging to the United Nations. The numbers were posted of the UN and of the Watchtower headquarters in order to have them explain themselves. My idea is not too dissimiliar. Below you will find a list of the members of my parents judicial committee with their addresses and telephone numbers. Once again I call for leaders who show no fear of change and the confidence to make people understand we will no longer be silenced. If you feel so inclined you may call or write to the members on the list below and ask them what is the REAL reason Carl and Barbara Pandelo are to be disfellowshipped. How did they arrive on the decision of apostasy? I do not expect an answer in these questions however this anti-theocratic war stratedgy may hold some promise.
We need to disable the Watchtower by finding it's weakness. It's true weakness is it's elder bodies. By creating such a buzz within the press and interested parties to intimidate local elders through contacting them, you psychologically render them immobile and unable to carry out the headquarters orders. If the elders are so overwhelmed by inquiry they decide to cover their own butts instead of the Society's, the Watchtower will no longer have the elder body scapegoat they have come to rely on at times like these. I am sorry if the ideas I present seem extremeist, however motivation is the order of the day.
I have no fear anymore of Watchtower reprecussions. I am still here not DA'ed or DF'ed and ready to go toe to toe with JR Brown myself if I have to. Whats right is right and justice will prevail. Sorry for the rant I am just kin of charged right now. Again below is the member list of the judicial committee. Any help is always appreciated. Hey Bill & Barb it's time we get one for our team.
[ personal information removed ]
Well boys and girls thats it. I think if its ok with everyone I will hang out at this board for a while. Thanks again for all of your love prayers and support, it is truly not accepted in vein.
Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. - Michael Corleone in The Godfather III.
Love & best wishes to all who support Bill, Barbara, and my parents.
Best Regards,
Justin