bottleofwater, I really think you should just leave (the org). I think you've heard enough of that opinion from most here over and over in all of your posts towards your situation. No offense buddy, but it almost feels like we have to take you out back and beat you with a baseball bat to get that into your thick skull.
Leave. You will be happier. You will be able to be free. Isn't that what you want? Or do you want to be caged within the WTS? You have us here on the forums for support, many are going through this dilemma daily. Don't over think things, don't make it more complicated than it is. Trust me, I've been DF'd twice, it's not so 'lonely' or depressing as they make it sound. It's actually quite serene and peaceful.