Oh Bez reading your post made me cry!
I have not long turned 30 and i left when i was 28... Carrot and I rowed pretty much constantly when we first left, it was awful! We had home schooled Babysprout while dubs as i couldn't bear the thought of her being left out with all the festivities and made to feel like a freak...As a result of us all being shunned when we left, all the kids she used to play with were no longer allowed to play with her...She was a very lonely sprout...She started school this march and has excelled! Which i am soo grateful for...
It's soo hard when you leave as you have nothing or nobody! Trust me it gets better... Your counselling will help you soo much...You will heal it just takes time but you will all get through it...And you will have a stronger marriage at the end of it...You have both been through so much together, be grateful that you have both managed to break free...
If you can pray cause i know its hard to when you first leave, ask to be clothed in Love...It helps honest....
Peace and love to you all