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LOL I don't mean girls gross me out- I'm saying it's a literal subconscious aversion to associate with them.
BORG SAYS: WORLDY GIRLS = BAD
I Disagree with borg.
Borg brainwashed me for seventeen years...
That's what I mean lol.
confliction
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Deprogramming... yourself.
by confliction inso, the title pretty much explains it.. .
i've come to a pretty definite conclusion for myself as to where i stand, and how i feel about the existence of a deity- let alone the idea that wts has divine backing.. .
my issue is that, being born in, i have lots of subconsciously ingrained phobias and behaviors burned in so deep, i constantly catch myself thinking and reatcting to things the "witness" way- things that don't apply to my life or the way i (want to) live my life anymore.. for example, because of the way i've been raised and indoctrinated, i've grown a serious aversion- you could say almost a literal fear- of worldy people; girls in particular.
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Deprogramming... yourself.
by confliction inso, the title pretty much explains it.. .
i've come to a pretty definite conclusion for myself as to where i stand, and how i feel about the existence of a deity- let alone the idea that wts has divine backing.. .
my issue is that, being born in, i have lots of subconsciously ingrained phobias and behaviors burned in so deep, i constantly catch myself thinking and reatcting to things the "witness" way- things that don't apply to my life or the way i (want to) live my life anymore.. for example, because of the way i've been raised and indoctrinated, i've grown a serious aversion- you could say almost a literal fear- of worldy people; girls in particular.
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Deprogramming... yourself.
by confliction inso, the title pretty much explains it.. .
i've come to a pretty definite conclusion for myself as to where i stand, and how i feel about the existence of a deity- let alone the idea that wts has divine backing.. .
my issue is that, being born in, i have lots of subconsciously ingrained phobias and behaviors burned in so deep, i constantly catch myself thinking and reatcting to things the "witness" way- things that don't apply to my life or the way i (want to) live my life anymore.. for example, because of the way i've been raised and indoctrinated, i've grown a serious aversion- you could say almost a literal fear- of worldy people; girls in particular.
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I'm almost 18- a few months away.
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Deprogramming... yourself.
by confliction inso, the title pretty much explains it.. .
i've come to a pretty definite conclusion for myself as to where i stand, and how i feel about the existence of a deity- let alone the idea that wts has divine backing.. .
my issue is that, being born in, i have lots of subconsciously ingrained phobias and behaviors burned in so deep, i constantly catch myself thinking and reatcting to things the "witness" way- things that don't apply to my life or the way i (want to) live my life anymore.. for example, because of the way i've been raised and indoctrinated, i've grown a serious aversion- you could say almost a literal fear- of worldy people; girls in particular.
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So, the title pretty much explains it.
I've come to a pretty definite conclusion for myself as to where I stand, and how I feel about the existence of a deity- let alone the idea that WTS has divine backing.
My issue is that, being born in, I have lots of subconsciously ingrained phobias and behaviors burned in so deep, I constantly catch myself thinking and reatcting to things the "witness" way- things that don't apply to my life or the way I (want to) live my life anymore.
For example, because of the way I've been raised and indoctrinated, I've grown a serious aversion- you could say almost a literal fear- of worldy people; girls in particular. All my life I've been taught through literature and meetings and conventions that any girl NOT in the truth is pretty much the spawn of satan himself- to be avoided at all cost. Now, I know this isn't true, but at a subconscious level it hinders my ability to even converse with the opposite sex, as if they were demon posessed or something.
Now, I know that when you're near a girl you like, you get nervous and feel stupid- but this is different.
I can hardly talk to any female near my age face-to-face.
It's like there's someone subconsciously beating me upside the head to shut up, and "flee".
It's hard to explain lol- this example may have not made perfect sense to you, but what I'm asking is if anyone knows ways to help combat this automatic thinking- or rather, deprogram myself? Keep in mind, this was just an example- I'm really just talking about getting over witness-like habits and fears in general.Any help appreciated, thank you :)
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Had an interesting conversation with mom about shunning...
by confliction inso i was speaking about some "problems" and "confusion" i had about the wtbs, and while speaking the subject of shunning came up.. .
long story short, my mom said that if i were (theoretically) ever to leave,.
she would still speak to me and have me over and do all the normal things .
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So I was speaking about some "problems" and "confusion" I had about the WTBS, and while speaking the subject of shunning came up.
Long story short, my mom said that if I were (theoretically) ever to leave,
she would still speak to me and have me over and do all the normal things
families do, except around the brothers and sisters- which is understandable.
But, as we know, we're technically only supposed to keep communication to a
minimum in regards to disfellowshipped / disassociated ones.On the other side of the story, I know that my dad rarely speaks to his oldest son,
Who is now in his 40's. I've never even really met the guy, and have seen his face
only twice in my entire life. But of course, my mother and father are two seperate
adults who can make independent decisions.So basically, my question is:
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What's the average age of JW's worldwide?
by XPeterX inand what's the percentage of men/women?just a thought.
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Hmm... that's a good question...
I don't know the age demographic worldwide, but it seems that where I live, whenever I go to assemblies and conventions, most of them look 50 or older. I would say maybe 60 or 65% of them are over 40 or 50. -
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July 4th
by exwhyzee injuly 4th is my birth date...and no matter what i say, they insist on lighting off fireworks and throwing a parade !
lol .
as a kid it was always pretty depressing to have two things going on in one day that i couldn't participate in.
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confliction
The dreaded double post....
Anyways, I meant to say that this is something I've been thinking about.
I'm still in the borg, so no b-days for me, but I've always wondered how
awkward it will be when I do have my first birthday party...
and my first fourth of july, and christmas... all those things.
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July 4th
by exwhyzee injuly 4th is my birth date...and no matter what i say, they insist on lighting off fireworks and throwing a parade !
lol .
as a kid it was always pretty depressing to have two things going on in one day that i couldn't participate in.
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Service is mathematically and logically pointless.
by confliction inso, i was thinking today about the point of service, other than the proclamations the king and his kingdom (bs :p ) and i kind of had an epiphany... but i'm sure somebody has already thought of this.
first, for people who never hear the 'truth', or never come to a true accurate understanding of it, they will most likely have odds in favor of them surviving into the paradise earth to get a second chance.
let's say the odds are 99% survival.. .
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Welcome SweetBabyCheezits
by yknot insweetbabycheezits...... i sent you a 'welcome pm'.......click on the envelop next to your username to access your pms.
if you get the error message in trying to open the pm, hit the back button and reclick on pm title!.
i see you joined a month ago....... i am glad you decided to start posting finally!.
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confliction
I don't think I need to repeat what everyone else here has already said- so I will just say welcome.