"I was thinking of presenting this matter to "Bethel", but if I did I would probably be DFed.
DF actually means nothing to me, but my girls (daughters) then wouldn't talk to me anymore.
So even though I'm out they still control part of my life.
What the GB is actually saying is: "You come out with the truth then we will seperate you
from your family"."
I hear ya, Avenger. Something similar may be happening to me right now, and I AM DA'd.
In answer to your question do real friends exist-yes they do. But real friends don't try to control you, nor do they side with people or organisations who are trying to control you.
We all have our breaking points. Sometimes I think JWs make it a mission to try and find them, so they can make us out to be the "evil apostates" (their religion must have scapegoats for it to be valid).I've worked hard since I was out not to let them goad me into behavior they can point to as being "typical" of apostates. But it never seems to end. Now I understand why so many have gone on the defense.
Just keep in mind, Avenger, most of society DOES agree with us about the JWs. I've opened up to some of my new friends, and their understanding and support helps a lot.