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  Anyone like Poetry?

  by Frenchy in

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  hey, anyone out there like poetry?

  have you a poem that you wrote that you would like to share?

  or just a favorite poem (by anyone) that you would like to post and talk about?

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  well folks im out

  by koolkeithfl in

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  2. friends

  i just got dfed last night.

  i want to thank you all in advance for helping me through this.

  i wanted to fade but my wife insisted that i wasn't gonna dfed.

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  "they told me i wasn't gonna see my father in the new system. they said he'll be looking for me and i won't be there. arrrrrrrrrrrrrr!" Hmm, I wonder whatever happened to "Judge not lest you be judged." I thought only Jesus could decide that with Jehovah's authority.See that comment for what is was-a last ditch emotional appeal, well intentioned or not. I actually started having serious doubts about the organisation a couple of years after I was baptised, but allowed a similar appeal to keep me in for way too many years-almost twenty.The elder used the "think of your children's future" appeal on me. He was sincere, but I wasn't clear headed.After my children shared their true feelings with me years later, I realized we would've been much better off if I'd have followed my gut instinct and DA'd way back then, before they were old enough to have been exposed to the organisation in ways that may affect them the rest of their lives. Welcome to the rest of your life:)
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  When have we ever made God happy?

  by Preston in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i got a call the other day from a friend of mine who's a devout christian, and he told me that even though he thought highly of me, he asked how could i (a reference to the marriage to my husband) bring so much anger and pain in god's heart.... it was a pointed question, and at any other time i wouldn't of answered his question in a way that would of resulted in a theological lesson.

  but i responded almost immediately: .

  "we must do a pretty good job bringing god so much unhappiness, anger, and upset.

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  When I was a child, I was mostly unchurched, but very spiritual.I felt very close to the deity I referred to as God. I didn't think of "God" in the narrow sense of a male being in the sky who was harshly judging us. I felt like God was a very benevolent being who was there to help us and teach us, but didn't butt into every little aspect of our lives. My childhood God expected me to be responsible for my own actions, learn from my mistakes, and treat others the way I wanted to be treated.My childhood God could be one thing to me, and another to someone else, and yet I felt that it was ALL God.

  It wasn't until I started getting involved with organised religion that I even knew any other concept of God existed. For a long time, I believed what others told me about this stern, judgemental concept of God, because the people who told me about him seemed so sure. But gradually, I realized that a concept of a God who demands fearful service or retribution didn't allow for true free will, and didn't allow for the type of communion that is derived out of the pure joy and love that one feels when one thinks of the concept of God.I realized my joy was gone, my service was hollow, and that I would rather be dead for eternity than to go through the outward motions of serving such a God.

  I was terrified with the idea of leaving the only community I'd known for twenty years, even though I knew I didn't belong there, that it was making me so agitated that my health was failing.Then I had a series of very beautiful, compelling dreams.Was it communication from something divine, or my own psyche? I don't know. All I know is that it gave me the courage to leave a belief system that was destroying me and my family little by little.

  And the God of my childhood-be it a Divine being or an archetype of my psyche, it doesn't really matter a bit to me which it is-was there to welcome me back home:)
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  Buy the Virgin Mary - Then Eat Her.

  by hillary_step in

  1. social
  2. humour

  virgin on the ridiculous.

  for some reason the url will not work.

  go to ebay and use the words virgin mary toast in the search box.

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  Lol, so that's what was on that piece of toast. I only saw half the story on tv and was wondering.
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  Just got home from the dentist :(

  by Princess in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i avoided the dentist for about six years.

  no insurance and two small kids seemed like a really good excuse.

  so i finally wenttoday.

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  {{{Princess}}}

  I hear ya, girl. I was in the same boat as you-no dental insurance for six years, and kids to worry about, too. I let a chipped filling go until I did have dental insurance (just recently got that straightened out-we were accidentally removed from the company plan twice), and evidentally, because the seal was broken, bacteria got back under the filling and I developed an abscess this past week. I guess the infection spread into my sinuses, so now I'm being treated for a sinus infection and an abscess. The headache is unrelenting.

  The dentist doesn't know if the tooth has to come out, or if I have to have a root canal. Either way, ouch! One of my children has to have a root canal, also, so we're going to be paying lots of dental bills now.I may have gum disease to boot.

  It doesn't pay to wait, but what can you do if you can't afford to go? I do know I'll think twice before I ignore a chipped filling! It's a lot easier to come up with $60 than $480!
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  Guideposts and Serena Williams

  by Triple A in

  1. watchtower
  2. scandals

  imagine my surprise when my wife shows me the cover of the october 2004 guideposts with serena williams photo on it and the caption, "serena williams serving the spirit.

  " for those that have not heard of the guideposts, from its own pages, "guideposts is a monthly inspirational, interfaith, nonprofit magazine written by people from all walks of life.

  its articles help readers achieve their maximum personal and spiritual potential.

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  "The magazine carries a four-page article by Serena Williams. I thought it was an offence against the WTS to read published material by others. What is the WTS stance on writing for other publications?"

  It is an offense. Evidentally Ms Williams didn't read the "Interfaith" section in her "Reasoning From the Scriptures" book,lol. If she were Josephine Rank and File, she would be disciplined for this action. It'll be interesting to see how it's handled. Does anyone know if she's baptised or not?

  When I was a JW, my grandma gave me a subscriptioin to Guidepost. Because I have a nosy in-law who happens to be the mail person, I had to write to the company and cancel my subscription, lest I be "reported" to the elders. This nosy in-law is not a Witness and in fact hates the Witnesses ,but pretends otherwise while in company of the Witnesses.Due to a family feud of which I involuntarily became a part, this person loved to try to get me in trouble with the elders.They would pretend to be a magazine reader, and when the elder called on them, would tell them crap I was supposedly doing.I wonder why the elder who called on them never figured out what was up when they repeatedly refused to subscribe to the magazines, and wouldn't get into spiritual discussions let alone have a Bible study,but insisted that they continue to bring the magazines to their door,lol.

  My grandma, on the other hand, was always very kind about my choice of religion, and never chided me for it, even the times when I was extremely ungracious to her, due to my "Bible training" (gag).She would just continually search for the similarities in our beliefs and talk about those, while ignoring any snotty comments I made regarding her beliefs.I truly believe that when she gave me that gift subscription, her heart was in the right place, trying to celebrate with me our commonalities in belief via an interfaith magazine (she would also accept WT and Awake, but just couldn't see what I valued from them).

  Now that I'm out, it angers me that the little men at the top of the organisation turn a blind eye to high profile members doing things like this, while allowing the elders to throw the book at the rank and file. What hypocrites!!Whatever happened to "everyone speaking in agreement"?

  My own behavior toward my grandma makes ashamed of myself, too. Well, at least I came to my senses and apologised to my grandma for being such a self-righteous bigot.She accepted my apology, and gave me a huge box of Christmas decorations to celebrate:)
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  ALLEYMOM INJURED!!!!!!!!!!!!

  by Dansk in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  dear all,.

  marjorie (alleymom) might not thank us for publishing this news but you all need to know.

  this wonderfully caring lady has been injured in a car crash.

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  Wishing you a quick return to good health, Alleymom.

  Cicatrix
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  Dream I Had a week Ago

  by Satanus in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i was w a small band of about 8 people on horseback in england.

  some challenger/threat to the throne had just landed.

  the leader of the group and the rest were going to go ride down and kill the person(s).

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  Satanus,
  Here are some entries from "Dream Dictionary: An A to Z Guide to Understanding Your Unconscious Mind". This particular one is a Jungian dream book.There are several different styles of dream dictionaries. I can't really interpret your dream for you, but you could look at these and think about what was going on in your life around that time.
  
  Another method of interpretation is word association. What do these words mean to you personally? Based on your history and your unique perspective on life, you may find that the dream has a totally different meaning.One thing that came to my mind is what were you waiting to tell the queen?
  
  8-death and resurrection;infinity;old fonts and baptisteries are octagonal because of the associateion with regeneration
  
  people-depict your human attitudes,strengths, and anxieties
  
  group of people-how you meet the pressure of scoial norms;public opinions
  
  horse-pleasurable energy and exuberance,the sort of energy or feelings of well-being that can "carry" one through the day easily; dynamic sexual drive, the physical energy and life processes that "carry us around. The life processes that carry-or pull-us through growth and aging.
  
  enemy-the person or group you are pitted agains represents something, probably within yourself, that you are in conflict with.
  
  kill-repressing or stopping some aspect of yourself
  
  queen-One's mother; a figure we use in dreams to illustrate our need for acknowledgement and personal and public acclaim; also represents one's culture, language, and traditions. Insome dreams the king or queen is dreamt about as the dreamer is becoming accalimed externally, and the dreams may precede this.
  
  barroom-often indicates how you relate to groups; relaxation or conflict with friends and others, depending on action in dream. There may therefore be signs of aggressiveness or defensiveness; feelings about society; exploring ideas or feelings, as one might in a communicative atmosphere in a bar; hopes, fears, or expectations about finding a sexual partner.Therefore the meeting or avoiding of the compelxities of relationship; gathering information or realizing things unconsciously gathered; can be difficulties regarding alchohol; one's techinique for avoinding confrontation with loneliness, anxiety, sense of failure, etc.
  
  leader-our relationship with authority figures, or the generally accepted ideas that people take to guide their life; the relationshiop with the leader might show how much responsibility we are taking for our life; feelings of being responsible, as in parenthoood or professional capacity.
  
  palace-a sense of importance, or privilege. In some dreams about a palace, there are evident feelings of something special happening. This probably links with the way palaces ar used in fairy stories. Such a palace represents the wonders of yourself, your amazing mind and qualities that might sleeping or overcome by enemies-i.e. disuse or ignoring them. The palace is also the storehouse of your culture and past, the treasure house of our family, social and racial inheritance.
  
  castle-Feeling of security or insecurity; defensive attitudes; the way we defend ourselves agains "attack"; past attittudes that may have been necessary in childhood to defend ourselves while strengthening our identity; our way of defending against or experiencing childhood pain.
  
  bedroom-privacy;sex; intimacy; rest; feelings of wanting to retreat
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  It's Friday!!! So why are you home?

  by kls in

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  2. friends

  this is a question that i am asking myself and the only answer is ,,,,cause i ain"t got a life.

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  so why are you sitting in front of your computer?

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  "Because I'm middle aged, in the middle of a good chianti and feeling very mellow"
  
  Darn, and all I had was some crappy Riuniti.
  
  I'm here because everyone else is at work tonight. I'm going to do a little creative rennovation on my costume, so I can go out and be naughty tomorrow and not get caught, lol.
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  "I'm Osama Bin Laden ... and I approve this message"

  by Simon in

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  it seems like everyone is making election videos .

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  "What I find interesting though is that currently (my source being a Staff Sgt. in the Air Force) there are about 20,000 in overage in the Air Force. They are trying to implement a Blue (Air Force) to Green (Army) program to get some soldiers to switch but so far there have been few takers.
  
  Kansas District Overbeer"
  
  
  Yep, I can second that. My info comes from someone who was just discharged from the Air Force, and seconded by another officer who is still in.The competition is stiff for Air Force positions now.
  
  As for the rest, well, I kinda stopped watching tv news last week. "Trick or treat,everyone, lol."