Welcome Bluefluff, DITTO what other members have written - lots of good advice. Were you born into the WTBTS?
If you were a born-in, have you read any books by cult-exit counselors, like Steve Hassan (i.e., "Combatting Cult Mind Control", "Releasing the Bonds: Empowering People to Think for Themselves", and (his latest book) "Freedom of Mind: Helping Loved Ones Leave Controlling People, Cults and Beliefs"), visited his website www.freedomofmind.com, and/or watched his FREE videos on his website? A person can leave a dangerous cult like the WTBTS, but the WTBTS's BITE control indoctrination is very powerful. You might heal faster after learning about overcoming WTBTS induced phobias and how to overcome you using thought-stopping platitudes
Are you thinking about getting more education/training so that you qualify for a better paying career?
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,
Robert