I had lived under the radar for 1 year now, when I first came out I was still scared to death of Armaggedon, but after too researching JW historys like we were never allowed to do, I now know that I have wasted 21 years of my life to them. They caught me just at 17 years old and I immediately believed everything they said and I lived in total fear.
Now I have woken up, I totally dont fear Armaggedon. This is not to say I dont fear death because I do (not being dead but dying) but then I'd say im not different to the average person with this.
When I saw just how many times they had changed their understanding of the generation prophecy that was it for me:Put this into your web browser & you will what I mean about all there changes...
http://freeminds.org/images/articles/generationjw.jpg
If you are 15 years old as you say you are, then I would say live your life, grab it by both hands and dont let go. Run as far away from the JW's as you possibly can before it destroys your emotionally.
(My daughter is now 16 years old. She had always been brought up a JW and has had to spend the past 12 months seeing a Counsellor along with a Psychiratrist....Thankfully she is now well on the mend and living life to the max with loads of worldly friends....)
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