You know, the biggest contributor to me getting mentally out was the realization that I was trained to lie to myself.
I realized that if I were to blatantly say something like ā our dedication is to Jehovah and his organization.ā I would NEVER be criticized. Literally, you can idolize the organization and the GB and verbally announce that you will remain loyal to the organization and you will be seen as a spiritually mature brother or sister.
So glad Iām out. So angry that I wasted the first 30 years of my life in the cult. Even more sad that I have so many family members and old friends that have nothing to do with me.