Welcome Friend ......Justangel.
Everyone here....... at least 90%, have become ex JW's or POMO's (Phyicically Out Mentally Out) others are PIMO's (Physicaly In but Mentally Out).
We also use short hand for The Truth About The Truth. TTATT
I'll share my journey with you for what its worth.
Baptized at 16 like every other JW teen I knew. At 18 I decided to serve as a pioneer where the need was great. It turned out to be the best decision I ever made. That's where I met my wife to be. She looked to be 17, fully grown, but she was actually 15 1/2.
Well she was my significant other and so we dated or rather 'courted'. This is the early 1960's I think we went through a box of chap sticks over the next two years until we both felt ready to marry. Kissing was just about the only intimacy that was appropriate.
She didn't have a house phone....... nor did I....... we arranged our dating through the mail.
I was pretty involved in the JW world and my congregation. Mostly I was used as a public speaker in the circuit and had three Elder level positions (we didn't have Elders in those days).
I will not go into that history since it no longer matters..when you leave you leave......for good.
All relationships were conditional that you were a believing JW.
I had three issues that were really difficult to hold on to. The ban on blood was already killing off a few of my and her family members.
Armageddon........... which was totally made up nonsense. Billions were to die so I and our fellow JW's could move into their homes (only the best homes of course).The little children would die because their parents were not interested in reading and accepting our WT books and magazines.
And that we had the only truth. Other religions cared for their members...... fed the hungry, clothed those that needed help etc. The JW's were not interested in the needs of the poor and ignorant.
I guess I knew it wasn't the truth but it took time to unwind their religious nonsense and realize they didn't have the 'Truth' and that no religion had the truth cause it was all made up. It took a couple of years to think it through today with the information provided by jwfacts.com it would take two days.
I sat with my wife and told her I had come to the conclusion that the JW religion was not the truth. I was nervous and quickly told her she could continue with the religion. There was a long pause and then she grinned and said two things to me;
"I've never believed the JW religion was for real".
And the second thing she told me: "Close your mouth!"
We stopped pioneering and left the religion with one C minus high school diploma between us. Vietnam hovering in the background. No real job skills and only a few ex JW friends.
It took us about five years to get retrained, establish our boundaries and start a new life.
In all .........leaving......... was the best decision we ever made.
When I was in my forties I needed open heart surgery, there was a problem and I was given five liters of blood. That was 35 years ago. I got to live a life worth living with the finest person I've ever known.