Hello and a belated welcome, Bushido8000!
I'm a non-jw who "studied" with two kind jw ladies for about six months. I'm still sorting out my own beliefs, so have nothing to convert you to or from.
What I'm sure of, is that we need to keep learning until we find what we need. Once you've started to do this, following along and suppressing doubts gets harder every day.
Even the Bible tells us to do this. I cannot imagine a loving Father who would forbid it.
Best wishes on your search!