I remember exactly what I would have thought when I was in. I would have felt sorry for those who left the congregation and were living happy lives. I would have said that you were sacrificing your eternal life for a few short years of happiness in this wicked system of things. You are trying to make your own paradise now instead of waiting for Jehovah to make it a reality. I would have thought you fooled by Satan. I was deluded of course.
Glad for your happiness dear.