I know what you mean Smidster.
After being brutally brainwashed by an abusive cult that is led by drunkards and paedophile lovers, I now have no trust in organised religion and religious leaders. Let's be honest, they're only humans that have to go to the khazi like the rest of us. They foist their interpretations on to which ever 'holy book' they advertise.
I do not know about God/s but the universe is awesome. Tardigrades rock!
Sadly, I feel the reaper will come, I will shuffle off this mortal coil in due course. Something tells me there's bugger all after this lot.