I’ve been mulling over this thread and reflecting over the last 38 years and the impact Jehovah’s Witnesses have had on them. I appreciated what our friend, Joepublisher1, has shared about his experience. His has paralleled so many others, mine included. Like him, flipper and others, it took years after the first seeds of doubt were planted before they bore the fruit of freedom from this cult.
So when I think about the friends and family I still have in the cult, I have to realize that their departure from the Witnesses, should that ever happen, won’t be quick and speedy. Joepublisher1 is right to say that indoctrination runs very deep and overthrowing it comes only with great effort and cost.
When I first began to doubt back in 1995, there was an immediate feeling of revulsion against myself for daring to question “Jehovah’s organization.” I remembered all the arguments that had been used against other opposers, how they had succumbed to arrogance, pride, hubris or the desire for some kind of sexual or other fleshly fulfillments. If I weren’t careful, I would do the same. So I initially suppressed my doubts and carried on, hoping that Jehovah would make everything clear in time if I exercised patience and maintained my faith.
It took trusting an elder who was a real Bible student and the trauma of being disfellowshipped to incite me to act on my doubts. The elder helped me to see that the WTS theology was for the most part hopelessly false, particularly with respect to its interpretation of Bible prophecy. Being disfellowshipped for being a gay man was another major turning point. Why would God damn me to eternal death simply for being who I truly was? Otherwise, he would have answered my prayers to change my nature into the one the WTS said I should embrace.
By 2007, I had come to realize the organization was a counterfeit, but I still sought reinstatement because I wanted to enjoy fellowship with friends and family again. I planned to get reinstated and then slowly and gently fade away. However, the continual rejections of my requests for reinstatement made me realize that going back was not only worthless but wrong as well. I was then able to turn my back on the WTS and its entire works for good. I have been much happier since then.
But all of this took years and my growth as a person has been ongoing ever since. I still have faith in the Bible and I still hold on to the hope that eventually our Creator will turn his full attention to humanity and answer the Lord’s Prayer in full. In the meantime, I live my life as best I can, free and secure in the knowledge that there is no reason to rejoin this execrable cult.
The 1975 fiasco seriously damaged many people. The WTS sought to shift the blame for its wrongheaded prophesying on the rank-and-file, saying we had “run ahead of Jehovah” and taken liberties with interpreting what had been published in WTS magazines and books. That is a lie, one of the worst in the long list of lies this organization has propagated. And even though I knew many who kept their heads during those hysterical and frenzied years leading up to 1975, we suffered nonetheless. Instead of developing the God-given talents and abilities we had, we let them languish and wither because even though 1975 had passed, we were told the End was still “soon” and we should not act upon any plans for personal growth and advancement.
I am glad to read the experiences posted here because even though many of us were damaged and wounded by the false hopes we had, most have escaped this cult’s clutches and are moving on with our lives in the years we have remaining. My friends, I wish all of you the very best and remember George Eliot’s wonderful exhortation: “It is never too late to be what you might have been.”
Quendi