I would say I was here, but in disguise. But really, I haven't been here. I will always return as I have some JW family left, but really- I have drifted away from drifting away. Been there, done that.
Sounds like you're on your way to being an "Ex Ex-JW" --
Sorry to say I am still letting it (JWism and ex-JWism) be too much of an influence in my life. But as the few JW friends I once still had go more and more incognito on me, I think it will have lesser and lesser influence.