did anyone see oj simpson on espn last night?.
dan patrick interveiwed that scumbag.dan asked him... .
ya, so do you still spend money trying to find nicoles killer?.
Hey Hannibal!
I totally hear you. The other day there was some funny thing on the radio: apparently OJ is having trouble getting custody of his kids from his in-laws; they quoted his remarks about how screwed up the US judicial system is..... Hahahhhahahahahahahahahah what a dope.
Miss seeing you and that other guy, the uninterested one...
love, lauralisa
where is valis ????
i haven't seen any post from him in the last 4 or 5 days... i sent him an e-mail and he hasn't answered yet... anyone knows ?
gone skiing or something ?edited by - celia on 17 december 2002 18:46:58.
He could be licking some toads... or, kissing some frogs...
I always get those two things mixed up
{{{Valis}}}}}
been doing a lot of reflecting lately, about my life and this crazy world.. fear has dominated my life.
i have barely lived because of it.
i just exist, that's about it.. when i was growing up, it was bullies at school.
Hi broccoli hair, (awesome visual, btw)
Life is 95% crapola, 39% sleeping, 24% feeling like shit, and 79% doing the same old day-to-day dork-wad routine that you never signed up for (!) nor feel like doing.
.000000003948578% is magic.... and I don't mean the 'casting spells' kind of magic; it's a flash of something that happens like when you're listening to "Whipping Post" or "Blue Skies" or channel surfing and surprise ! Marlon Brando describing "horror" (uh, not a good example I guess, but IMHO Marlon Brando could read box of macaroni and cheese and it would be "magic")
Or the few moments when you can't imagine being anywhere else in the entire universe than the place you are in at that precise moment because it is SO GOOD
Usually, feeling loved has a whole lot to do with what I'm talking about.... I don't know if you have had to lose your family in your exodus from the borg or not, but if you have, finding 'new' family takes TIME... but it does and will happen... you just have to hang on and wait, okay?
In the meantime, spew all you want and we will read it. One of my favorite 'feel better' books is "The Myth of Sanity" by Martha Stout, PhD... many survivor stories in this
love, lauralisa
is anyone on disability for a mood disorder ( depression/bipolar etc.
and if so, how are you making meet?.
cyn
Hi Cyn,
I am... for almost ten years now. Did you mean to say 'how do you make ends meet'? Do you mean financially?
(If so, the quick answer: you don't
Long answer: don't know enough about you to make any suggestions... can you say more about your situation? Also, it shouldn't matter WHAT kind of disability you have ... whether it is a physical, mental or other type of disability...
Which state, if you live in the US, do you live in?
Hope you are okay.... lauralisa
this was sent to me and i think it's a riot!
for all of us who feel only the deepest love and affection for the way.
computers have enhanced our lives, read on.
That was a riot, Farkel......!!!
Ironically, if I had a pc, I could probably transform this URL into a viewable thing on this thread.... oh well. It ties in nicely with the topic at hand:
http://rita.thegourmet.com/computers.html
Live from Nowhere .... it's Saturday night!
lauralisa
so the person i call mom continues to baffle me.
anyone who has paid any attention to what i write and ramble on about here knows my relationship with my dearest mother is strained to say the least.
we always have lulls in our battles but invariably something will come up to send us off in a tailspin of fighting and arguing.
Joanna,
It is not about YOU! It is not about you. Your mom has pain and turmoil in her heart, and she has put you in the completely untenable position of having to meet her emotional needs. Of course, first you must read her mind, determine stuff that she herself remains oblivious to (denial is god among jw's, but you already knew that) and throw your own individuality out of the window so you can provide her with some magic phrase which will relieve her inner tension. As if.
You could never do any of these things. It is not your job to meet her needs, nor to be her therapist. Any time a parent requires that their child "make things feel better" results in the exact type of dialogue you described in your initial post. It's just beyond fucked, so, like, don't play! You can't win.
You are awesome, IMO. You will be a fabulous teacher. You are one of those kinds of people - I dunno - it's just GOOD to spend time with you - you "leave the park looking better than it did before you got there" kinda people. I wish you were closer geographically. Not that it would matter, because soon we will be blocks of ice up here in this freaky arctic state.....
You could be the perfect child, (probably are....) and she would still try and make you do these psycho gymnastics, I suspect. So, don't dance with her.
Hugs, lauralisa
PS to Brummie: Joanna spelled 'judgment' correctly which is quite remarkable so she gets extra credit!
since it is so cold and everyone is spead all over the world,,,,, just imagine that we are all , of us here on the board have been invited to a large building for one hell of big apostofest.
would you choose to come to the party?
pretend money is no issue ,time, travel , work or kids.
I was at this "club med" type of mental hospital once for like two months once out in an Arizona desert. We would have to have group "fun" times on certain nights. It was cool.
One of the things we did was lay around in a big circle (there were like 20 + or so people in varying stages of recovery/intervention). You'd put your head on the stomach of the person to your right and your left-hand neighbor put THEIR head on your stomach. Then someone starts to giggle. Before too long, there is a big ring of bobbling heads and clutching at privates (one's own, btw) and hysteria. It was so so so goddamm funny - we like laughed our guts out for at least an hour... it was a very 'bonding' experience
Hmmmm.
what is death?
and what makes it so bad?
i am going to post something in a minute that is very personal for me, and yet i feel it is necessary to say.
Amazing post, Moe
this morning as i was going over to the hospital i heard that another one of the hospitals within the radius of toronto had closed the emergency rooms due to a severe out break of a strain of influenza.
it was not one of the strains that was included in the flu vaccine this year so it has caused quite a stir in the hospitals and nursing homes and schools.
as i was talking to my doctor this morning i told him the richmond hill hospital closed down the emer.
Hi Orange,
This thing is going around here in Minnesota too... someone said it's called the "Norfolk flu". I was planning on getting a flu shot tonight.... should I bother now if it's not included in the current vaccine? Oh, yuck.
I wonder if this is the same kind of thing that's messing up all of those cruiseline ships? I can't imagine a worse fate - at sea, stuck on a boat, sick as ***......
Take care of yourself - laura
the fear of rejection has once again controlled my life and my actions in an unintentional act of self destruction brought on by how i was raised to view life.
i have come to the conclusion that i will probably be battling this psychological whirlpool of self sabotage for the rest of my life and i do not think i have the ability to completely eliminate it.
talking about it here is a start.
Dave....
I read every word of what you wrote. You are very brave underneath all of that fear. You are half-way there (wherever "there" is) because of your bravery and I suspect there is more than a bit of hope in your heart ... this is a good thing...
Wish I could help or say something that didn't sound vapid. I have fought a long time with this same type of fear. It took a million risks - ie letting myself be vulnerable to another person - and time.... little by little, experiencing love (not necessarily erotic love) healed up my fucked up brain patterns. I guess this risk-taking thing will take the rest of my days, even so.
Hope it stops feeling like total crap soon for you. You have my admiration and safe regard, not that such a thing amounts to anything, but I'm sayin it anyway.
laura
