Perry, your god is responsible for more deaths and suffering than all of the Hitlers and Osamas combined. Your god forced young women to marry their rapists. Your god forced parents to stone their children. Your god forced his people to commit ethnic cleansing, including infanticide. Such a brutal individual truly does need to be separated from loving people. Perhaps what you call judgement is actually a reward.
And I never said you took "delight" in the torment of dead people. I quoted you to say you took "comfort" in it. Look, I know where you are coming from, I honestly do. I was there once. Now outside looking in, I see the brutality of such a god, and the brutality of the people motivated by the bible. There are plenty of religious people that simply don't fall into the brutality category--but I have found that most of them dismiss large portions of the bible.
If there is spirituality, I'd go with the pagans. These local religions were practiced for thousands of years before some angry desert dwellers decided to paint their hateful god. Perhaps such religions formed before humankind began using religion as a manipulative tool. Maybe the Neanderthals didn't have the capacity that way---or maybe Homo eretus. Back when things were a bit more egalitarian and they were just looking to find their way. Back when homo sapien was new and still investigating their potential to make others do as they wished. Perhaps their religion grew from a more innocent place, and they used it to cope. Then they figured out what a motivating force fear was, and the world has never been the same.
Is that enough science for ya Designs?