First welcome to the board. Many of us here were also raised just like you. Leaving is a process...it took years of brainwashing for you to believe the JW religion, it takes time to wash your brain free of its influences.
Do you work? Have you tried to make friends there? I know for myself I am my own worst enemy. Being a JW all my life, I really feel like a square peg in a round world. I think we have been so indoctrinated with not having "bad association" that we give that vibe out to people, so they stay away from us. JMO
Take small steps at a time. Keep coming back!!!
Leslie