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tried to get to http://www.silentlambs.org/ but come up with some enzim.net page.
badjerry
I tried www.silentlambs.org and got nothing...but i tried www.silentlambs.COM and it came up ... my apologies if this has already been posted... Whoops! I get the silentlambs site with BOth addys...sorry bout that!
Edited by - nilfun on 17 September 2002 18:57:22
do any of you good people of jw.com remember going to a district convention and hearing that little announcement the chairman would make before the bible-drama started?.
it generally went like this: "please remain seated during the drama and please do not obstruct other peoples view if using recording equipment such as camcorders" and he would also say "please do not use flash photography because it distracts others and is of little use.".
they made such a fuss anyone would think we were all going to witness the second coming of christ, floating down on his chariot onto the field!
LOL! ah, I needed that laugh!
Have you any sort of idea what is actually going on here, because I haven't a clue!
Perhaps you should have taped the drama, transcribed it, then you could have pasted little captions underneath all the photos. Kinda like a "Drama Mini-book"....
it's been about 6 months since my last post.
what a world of shit i am in now.. some of you may recall a thread i started on my problems with my wife found here at http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/forum/thread.aspx?id=24462&site=3 .
a little update first.
Apostate Man, I am sorry you are going through such a difficult time right now. I don't have much more to add to what the others have said, get a tough father's rights attorney, ask for an independent psych evaluation, organize a scrapbook or photo album of how involved you have been in your childrens lives, yeah, and don't talk to her, but don't stop trying to talk with your children. You are at war now, like it or not. I wish you the best.
my name is 'pincushion', i reside in alberta.
in 1989 i started studying with the jw's.
i was really drawn to the 'truth' and after much trial and tribulation i was baptised in 1991 during a lethbridge assembly.
Hi Pincushion I sounds like you have been through the wringer.
The next day we put a restraining order on the entire congregation.
Wow, that was pretty brave, good for you both. Yeah, the past can be hard to get over, but sometimes it helps to talk about it. Glad you're here.
my family was playing around the other day, humming different songs from tv shows and getting the other one to guess what show it was.
then we asked what song best describes you.. my family agreed, mine would be ghetto girl, by little bow wow.
lol.
Many, depending on my mood. Three are:
At Seventeen by Janis Ian
No More Drama by Mary J Blige and
Watching the Wheels by John Lennon
this is a small part of me.. it is a strange thing how sometimes only one.
child in a family will be mistreated, while the rest are spared.. it makes it difficult if not impossible to talk about things that happened.
to me without some of my family members expressing disbelief.
((((mamashel))))
IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY, BELIEVE ME THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE TO LOVE AND RESPECT YOU, YOU DESERVE IT
Thanks for the kind words, and yes, that "someone" and I have finally found each other.
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it is 5:14 am and i have not slept...my pattern of sleep has reveresed ..but i will do my best to lay a foundation for the rest of my story.. it is long so i will cut corners and by the ned ( if i get there) i hope that some people will remember most of it...i am hoping this will help me heal .. to begin with... i had depression as a child ....call it sadness..children do not have the vocabulary or understanding with which to label things.and they more often than not internalize and take blame for what may be considered abuse.....as a child i was rather aware and analytical.. this sadness came from my own genetics and living with an erratic ( bipolar pehaps father) and a depressive mother.....no one knew!
i felt somethung was wrong but as i voiced it in my teens i became the bad one...dad was verbally abusive and mom backed him up due to her own" stuff" mom hispanic abd catholic dad was a non practicing jew..........mom was raised to be super resonsible and to take crap from her husband,,,her own father being an alcoholic,,,,,,,along the way many major family tragedies occured........mom was always praying and " accepting her lot in life"........ i felt a loss and hole in my chest and i asked god begged god to help me to be a father to me.......when we went to the woods i used to talk to the trees and nature and look up at the sky and just know that there was a benevolent 'someone" looking out for me.... as i got older i serached for the right way to find god....i felt that once i found this then all woud be well.......... i read about many "christian" religions read parts of the bible led my life like a nun.... i investgated pentocostal churches that are referred to as legalistic nowadays......( i am over 40).......i looked at the cathoilics even asked questiosn of a priest and he failed he test...........i ahd never been bapstized and i wanted it to be the absolutly right place.........as if i were marrying god............i am depressive posisibly bipolar2.....i have read where some illness manifest in obsssions with religious things .....( god ) ........perhaps it is so .....but so many i knew in various groups seemed to be sure and seemes to not suffer as i .........my mother;s respnse to me sadness was to take me to a spiritualist and i knew at that time this was like a pysch doc to her culture.......... there is more abt my childhood much much more....but i will end this bt saying that the stage was set for me to enter a high control group.... as my father and mother were both patriaachial mom being sooooooooo passive submissve........... just a note: dysfunctional groups ( systems) resemble each other.......... .
((((Cyn)))) Thank you for sharing this with us.I'll echo what ugg wrote, you are not alone.
i have only posted a few times so far, and i dont want to sound like a constant complainer or whiner, but i really need someone to talk to and some feed back.
we used to go to the elders with problems, and i have turned and leaned on you all now.
first i would like to thank you all for your kind and caring feedback.. my daughter has broken my heart.
((((Mamashel)))), There's nothing like a mother's love. She's lucky to have a Mom that has done so much for her. I don't think I can give you much advice here, but you have my admiration for how far you have been willing to go for her. To me, you daughter sounds like a beautiful butterfly in a jar, newly emerged from her chrysalis. If she doesn't get out of the confines of her jar(home) and spread her wings, they harden as a crumpled mass and will become useless. She will never know what it is like to unfold her wings and fly on her own.
life, ruddy absurd it can be often, i'll grant many of you that premise, however, does life owe you any favours or do you get out of it, what you put into it?
if, like many, you have been told before, that you lack the right attitude to activate positive change within your personal or financial circumstances, just what is it that can cultivate in you, the right kind of changes that further enable you to lead more fulfilled lives?.
well, one thing for certain, is that one answer does not fit all unique circumstances.
Transformation and positive change takes time, patience is needed plus a willingness to try out new approaches, new ways of doing things,This is something I really needed to hear. If I continue to do things the same way, over and over, then I shouldn't be surprised when the same stuff keeps happening in my life, over and over. Thanks for posting this, Celtic.
judgement day (salem reid).
there's no peace, no place, just excruciating pain.
there's no peace, no place, just buried deep pain.
Mimilly, Those poems were very touching. Thank you for posting them.
