Posts by LyinEyes

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Funeral for scootergirl's husband

by frozen one in

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i'm attending the funeral for scootergirl's husband this afternoon.

i'll be sure to pass on the kind words and hugs from everyone at jwd.

LyinEyes

FrozenOne thanks so much for letting us know and I sent you a PM. I hope I catch you before you go, if not , please help me get in touch with Christy.

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To all who know Scootergirl...

by frozen one in

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friends

i just received a phone call from a friend.

she wanted to let me know that scootergirl's husband committed suicide.

i know scootergirl has many, many friends on this board.

LyinEyes

((((( Christy )))) there are no words to make it feel better . I am just in shock , even when you think it might happen this way, when it really does the impact of this is horrible.

Christy I hope you read this, or Becky if you do, please give me the number and I will call. I will send you mine in a PM again, in case ya'll don't have it. We talked about needed to get together before this, and now , we really need each other.

Sunday's are always hard for me anyway, 6 months since Ginger committed suicide and the pain never goes away,,,,,,,but you learn to live on.

Christy is one of the strongest people I know, courageous and always looking on the bright side, my heart hurts for you so much now.

Christy , I love you and I am sooooo very sorry for Filthy . I guess we can never fully understand.

Hugs and love, Dede

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Funeral for scootergirl's husband

by frozen one in

jw
friends

i'm attending the funeral for scootergirl's husband this afternoon.

i'll be sure to pass on the kind words and hugs from everyone at jwd.

LyinEyes

I had no idea........speechless, please tell her Denny and I are thinking of her.

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grief & jw's?

by carla in

reading the other thread made me wonder, do jw's ever truly grieve at the loss of a loved one?

i can see in front of other jw's they feel the need to maintain the party line, but in private?

LyinEyes

((((((Emma))))) I am so sorry for your loss.

My dad is an active witness and it was so hard at my sister's funeral because he so much wanted me to believe the way I used to. I couldnt , not for one second find any comfort in the earthly resurrection. I basically told him I don't even believe in God anymore.

It is so hard to mourn , when one is JW and one is not. At this time it should be where me and my Dad can comfort each other , but it can't be that way.

I just feel for ya Emma, I lost my mom when I was 18 and I know it is so hard. What makes it worse is the that religion was between you. Do you have time with your Mom before she passed to talk , where ya'll close at all?

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Describe your Spirituality after Leaving JW's please

by esw1966 in

what has been your attitude toward religion after leaving jehovah's witnesses?.

did you search for religious truth?

scoff at religion?

LyinEyes

When I first left JW, I thought I had to find a replacement religion right away, who do I pray to now!! I was in a panic.

Then someone told me to put the Bible down and focus on myself for awhile.

It has been three years later and I still have not picked up a Bible, nor do I want to .

I have prayed when I needed to, to whom I am not sure but I wanted to and I did.

I still can't tell you if I believe in God, or some higher power, or heaven or hell. I just don't have a clue.

I guess you can say I am opened minded to the possibilities of anything right now, wishing that it was true that we all are going to meet up in heaven one day. But honestly after getting burned by JW lies, somethings do seem too good to be true. So I just don't think too much on it right now.

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My thoughts today

by purplesofa in

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as i get myself ready to go to work today.

i was a housewife for 10 years.........and now have worked the better of 18 years......... there is still hardly a day that goes by where i don't long to be home.

i would never be bored, i could find endless things to do.. do men still look for wives that would be, or need a woman "full-time"?

LyinEyes

Hey Purple how are ya? Fine here, was hoping we run into each other at Dawg's Wedding. It was beautiful and he looked so happy.

Anywho, about your thoughts for today. I love being home too, but I darn sure like getting out of the house. Me and Denny still live in the old house we had when you came to visit and we have talked of buying a new house. But this is home , and for right now , as old as it is , it is such a comfort to my neice especially.

She has good memories of her Mama here and every time she lived with me here , she was happy. I am so comfortable her myself , I am really afraid to move and have to start new memories ya know.

I think that there are alot of men out there, even the younger generation who want a woman who takes pride in her home, in taking care of things in that way. My nephew's g/f of 6 years walked out on him because she was just bored. She left their son, in the care of my nephew , not caring anymore. She never had supper waiting for him, nor did she greet him with a kiss or a hi after a long day at work.

My nephew just wanted her to be happy and content with their lives as they had been, but she wants to party. It's really sad.

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grief & jw's?

by carla in

reading the other thread made me wonder, do jw's ever truly grieve at the loss of a loved one?

i can see in front of other jw's they feel the need to maintain the party line, but in private?

LyinEyes

I can just give you my personal experience......I would say no,,,,,JW's do not grieve like the rest of people.

When my Mom passed when I was 18, I was so strong,,,,,,,,I just kept on going, putting off the real grief because I felt that Jah, would take care of that in the NewWorld. So I put it off , thinking that he would take care of it all for me. After all the NW was just a couple of years away and I would see my Mom soon . That was 21 yrs ago.

When I left the JW's, I truly broke down and grieved for my Mother, even admitted to myself what my beloved religion had done to her. She committed suicide , partly because she felt she let Jehovah down and would not be forgiven for her prescription drug abuse.

I finally after all of those years was able to show emotion,,,,real raw emotion.

Again it happened , I lost my baby sister to suicide 6 months ago. This time there was no religion telling me where she was, where she was going, or even if I would see her again. This time I cried, I moaned, I mourned, I laughed and I was angry.

I am in a better place than I was6 months ago , as I should be. I will always grieve , because suicides are the worst kind of death if ya ask me, except that of your own child I would imagine, but I am going thru the basic normal patterns of grief.

I know that 5 yrs down the road, I will still be grieving, but at least this time I accept that she is gone and that I have to move on. Maybe I will see her , maybe not , but I had her 35 yrs and she is with me no matter what. I can even entertain the thought that she might be in Heaven.

Sometimes I wonder would it better to be a blind , fairy tale believing JW, or is it better to know we don't have all the answers? I choose the latter , and it seems to be a good way of thinking for me . Helps me grieve for what is lost , right here and now, and to move on the best I can.

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What keeps you from killing yourself?

by AlmostAtheist in

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every once in a while, the whole "futility of life" thing washes over me and something inside of me mentions the suicide option.

not that it's ever seriously considered, but one of the low-level accounting-types in my head quietly sends around a "worst-case scenario" memo that everyone reads, then dismisses.. after all, things always perk up.

"but," reminds the pessimistic little guy that should've been fired years ago, "they always go back down, too.

LyinEyes

I just don't to go out that way.

I want to see myself old. I want to "know" me when I have more wisdom from age. I want to see what happens next , everyday.

I do understand that living on thru the years to come , is not going to always be wonderful. As we all get older there are going to be more funerals to go to, more sick friends and family, etc. etac.....but even with that , it is worth it.

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