Finding love would be a start. Having someone to care about, share my life with.
Mackin
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What would it take for you to be happy
by kenpodragon inwhat would it take for you to be happy in life?
does it take the fall of the organization, or just one person?
or does it take something else completely unrelated to the witnesses?.
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Fastest Growing Religion in Oz is.................
by ISP inwitchcraft wins converts .
by jason frenkel .
witchy women (l-r): holly marie coombs, alyssa milano and rose mcgowan from charmed.
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Mackin
THE STORY: One day two children, Tim and Rose, discover their cow, Lucy, is missing! Worried that they'll never have milk for breakfast again, the two children decide to follow Lucy's hoofprints and get their cow back!!
They follow Lucy's hoofprints into a big forest, which has "trees as thick as their teachers legs at school"! Unfortunately, they don't find Lucy before it gets dark, and as the Tin Lion roars in the darkness, the children wonder where they are going to sleep! Luckily, a small Tree Goblin called Binklebonk offers to put up Tim and Rose for the night.
The next morning, after thanking Binklebonk for his hospitality, the children set off deeper into the woods, despite the warning of a small tree Robin to watch out for BadJelly the Witch (who catches little children, turns them into sausages, and eats them!!). As they search for Lucy, the children come across a friendly worm called Mud-wiggle who helps them across a river; a sad policeman who was turned into an apple tree by BadJelly; and a mouse called Dinglemouse (who used to be a banana, but was turned into a mouse by BadJelly). Dinglemouse convinces Tim and Rose he would be good company, so Tim carries him in his trouser pocket.
As they climbed a big mountain, the children began to get very cold. They come a across an old lady, who offers to put them in her sack to warm them up! Thanking the old woman, Tim and Rose get into the sack -- But!! The old woman cackles with glee!! She was BADJELLY!! The witch the children had been warned about! BadJelly closed the sack, and flew the children back to her castle on her broomstick!
At her castle, BadJelly gives the children to her Giant called Dulboot, who locks them away in the top of the prison tower, until the next morning, when she'll eat them!. As the children worry about being eaten, and never seeing their parents again, Dinglemouse nibbles his way out of the sack. He tells the children he'll go to his friend Jim, the giant eagle, for help!
The next morning as BadJelly is making her way up the stairs to get the children for her breakfast Tim and Rose see Dinglemouse and Jim through the window of the prison tower, the children manage to scramble onto Jim's back before BadJelly can get them! But BadJelly jumps on her broomstick, and chases Jim the Giant Eagle up into the sky. As Jim, Dinglemouse, and the children hid in a big cloud, God came along, and seeing what BadJelly wanted to do to the children, he asked BadJelly to go away, and when she wouldn't, he pointed his finger at the witch and blew her up!!
Now that BadJelly was gone, Jim flew the children safetly back to BadJelly's castle, where they found Lucy their cow!! Pleased that they were safe, and that they had their cow back, Jim flew Tim, Rose, and Lucy, back to their house, and their very happy parents!Ahhhh, my childhood memories are coming back. No wait, we were 'dubs, we weren't allowed to listen to this. It was from Satan.
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sleepless in seattle
by Incense_and_Peppermints in(close enough).
it's weird i never come here this late.
i know it's a virtual place, but it feels as if i'm walking through an empty building.
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Mackin
these little islands there and the sand looks like sugar, all white and sparkly. and the water is turquoise. and so clear.
Hmmmm, I wonder where that was. Sound's more like the Pacific Islands.
But your are right, there is some fab places in NZ. Come visit sometime.
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sleepless in seattle
by Incense_and_Peppermints in(close enough).
it's weird i never come here this late.
i know it's a virtual place, but it feels as if i'm walking through an empty building.
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Mackin
We're still awake down here in the Southern Hemisphere.
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My Story
by Mackin ini guess it's time for me to tell my story on this forum.
my parents came into contact with the "truth" during their engagement and so i was born into a borg family and quickly "assimilated.
" the congregation i grew up in however had very liberal views on many subjects, such as higher education, secular careers, and the like.
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Mackin
Thanks to you all for your kind replies. You people are too good.
What a great place this is.
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finally got my thoughts gathered to share......
by scootergirl ini am relatively new to the board and have to say have never had such a heartwarming welcome from so many people!
it feels so comforting to make new friends that "understand" where i have come from.. i have read many many stories, and have sat back in awe....wow, what stories.
mine is quite simple, but none-the-less my story.
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Mackin
My heart truly goes out to you Christy.
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What tree are you?
by gsx1138 ini happened to post this very subject in the wrong forum but here it is now.
i thought this was kinda cool.
it is based off of the druid calender which is basically the gregorian calender.
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Mackin
Hippikon, did you send me some? Which address did you use?
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Voyeur gets women to bare breasts for satellite
by ashitaka invoyeur gets women to bare breasts for satellite .
(filed: 28/06/2002) .
four women have contacted police after being persuaded to stand topless in their windows or balconies so that a satellite could give them a mammogram.. the women, aged between 19 and 45, living in the algarve, southern portugal, were all contacted by telephone by a woman claiming to be a doctor.. she told them that a revolutionary method had been developed of conducting breast examinations by satellite.. they were told that the consultation would be free if they followed instructions by stripping to the waist and standing in view of the satellite.. one woman was so trusting that she took off all her clothes for the "examination".. later, the women were telephoned with the alleged results of the examinations.
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Mackin
When I read this I 'bout fell off my chair. Hilarious.
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My Story
by Mackin ini guess it's time for me to tell my story on this forum.
my parents came into contact with the "truth" during their engagement and so i was born into a borg family and quickly "assimilated.
" the congregation i grew up in however had very liberal views on many subjects, such as higher education, secular careers, and the like.
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Mackin
I guess it's time for me to tell my story on this forum. So here goes:
My parents came into contact with the "truth" during their engagement and so I was born into a Borg family and quickly "assimilated." The congregation I grew up in however had very liberal views on many subjects, such as higher education, secular careers, and the like. Quite recently I learned from the X-JW daughter of the "Congregation Servant" (that term dates me doesn't it) at the time that he didn't believe a lot of that the WTS taught but stuck with it because he felt there was "nowhere else to go."
I got baptised in 1973 when I was 14 y.o. I don't really know why I decided to do it then, but I did. During my later teenage years I began to have serious doubts about the existence of God and the authenticity of the Bible. Nothing in the WTS publications, or anywhere else convinced me that there really was a God or that the Bible was any more than a book of human origin. So eventually I made a break for it and moved in with some "worldly" friends. They were good people but lived on the "other side of the tracks" compared to what this starry eyed Witness boy who still felt like a JW at heart, had ever experienced. I even tried "witnessing" to them on occasion. Needless to say I didn't really fit in and I felt desperately alone and lonely, the guilt I was experiencing was almost overwhelming. Sometime later a work opportunity presented itself in another city so I decided to make another break and moved there, living with a JW family I had been friends with for some time, who had earlier also moved to the same city. I started going to the meetings with them, quickly made friends and before I knew it I was back in the Borg. That family became my best friends.
From then on I was on the up-and-up in JW-land. I moved into a flat with a guy who was studying with a special pioneer and who began to pioneer himself as soon as he qualified after baptism. Shortly thereafter I quit my job and I too started pioneering. During this time the son of the family I had stayed with was invited to Bethel so I, thinking this was the right thing for a young single "brother" to do, applied for Bethel service as well. After a few years I was appointed a Ministerial Servant and was progressing well in the Borg-anisation but ran foul of the local elders who thought I was too "strong willed" and "outspoken." I later learned that they thought I was lacking humility and had a problem with "following the direction of the elders." I remember one particular PO screaming at me, after a particularly encouraging "shepherding call" that "You'll never be an elder in this congregation as long as I have anything to do with it." And I never was.
Anyway in spite of that I was invited to Bethel, another move, and appointed an elder shortly after arriving and about six months after that I was appointed the PO of the congregation I was assigned to. I later read the letter the elders had written "introducing" me to my new congregation, and boy did they "put the boot in" as we say in this part of the world. I began to realise that not all elders were as kind and loving as the WTS would have you believe.
Bethel had been a long-time goal that I never thought I would attain and yet here I was, and I was an elder and PO to boot. Life couldn't be any better I thought. I was wrong, my god was I EVER wrong.
Without going into all the gory details, Bethel is corrupt, totally corrupt, and the higher up you go, the more corrupt it gets. So you think God's spirit guides these men HA! The infighting, backstabbing, empire-building, dishonesty and lying that I've seen with my own eyes makes a total lie of that (assuming of course that there even is a God). And all the Dateline/Child Abuse stuff - believe it - it's all true. I've seen situations just like it. I'm still haunted some nights by the memory of Judicial Committees I have served on and the effect the decisions that were made have had on people's lives. I hope those memories will fade one day. I hope they will forgive me. I hope you all will forgive me.
I could give you some first hand insight into what really goes on behind the closed doors of an elders meeting, but I suspect that many on this forum already know. Spirit directed NO! Personality directed YES! Motivated by loving concern for the flock NO! (well maybe a few individuals) Motivated by what the Circuit Overseer will write in his report to the WTS YES! Not afraid of lying to the CO to make things look good ABSOLUTELY! And I'm only scratching the surface here. Of course you could argue that these are human failings common to any human organisation, and that is true, but then no other organisation claims to be GOD'S Organisation on earth, with the congregation directed by Christ himself, do they! You could also argue that it's not the organisation that's at fault but the men who run it, but why would God appoint such incompetent men to positions of such great authority over peoples lives? And they do claim to be appointed by "Holy Spirit" (if there is such a thing).
But I digress
Eventually all this corruption started to get too much for me and the old doubts that I had always had, but buried, started to surface again. Some will say I neglected my spirituality and so "fell away" quoting "the sin that easily entangles us" and all that stuff, but I think of it as "wising up" to the REAL truth, not the WT "Truth." I know I never had any spirituality, it was all just a sham. I was locked into the Borg and couldn't get out. However when you're in Bethel getting out is not always an easy thing to do, especially if you've been pioneering for a good many years and have little money. So I buried the doubts again for a few more years and continued the facade of spirituality. I've always thought it interesting that it was during this time that I was assigned parts on District Conventions and given increased responsibilities in the circuit and Bethel. If only they knew what was really going on in my mind.
By now several yrs of Bethel service has passed and I could take no more, so I made an excuse and left. I got a job and rented a flat in my local congregations territory.
I continued as the PO in the congregation for another year then moved to a neighbouring congregation, where I was reappointed as an elder soon after. This congregation, like the last one, had elders who were also Bethelites, and the unholy attitudes of Bethel were also evident. By now I could take no more. I had devoted half my life in the Borg, remained single, in spite of a strong desire for a partner, because I thought I was doing what Jehovah wanted, and now I felt like it had all been wasted. I stopped attending meetings. Apart from one elder, who visited a few times, I had no witness visitors or callers. No-one cared, I didn't exist. I never thought I could feel so low. So much for the "loving brotherhood."
I moved to the other side of the city and left no forwarding address other than a Post Office Box number with my landlord. All those fine JW friends, even the family I had considered my "best friends" refuses to speak to me. A few individuals have sent the odd e-mail but as soon as I let them know that I'm not interested in coming back they stop trying to contact me.
For the last 2-3 years I've been trying to rebuild my life and do some of the things I've missed out on, but its not been easy. I'm getting there however, little-by-little. I'm over the guilt and I've removed every trace of "dub-dom" from my life as a kind of "cleansing." I have a great job and I've made some great friends. Still looking for that "special" someone however.
This place has been a fantastic find. I have close friends to confide in, but no-one really understands what an X-JW is going through like you guys. You're all helping me heal. I appreciate you all.
So if there's anything I can do to assist anyone to escape the Borg, I'm only too willing. I'm not pushing for reform of the WTS, nor do I ever wish to go back. I don't think it will ever change. There is nothing anyone can do to "fix" it, the best thing you can do is get out. If the Borg ever decide to come after me, I don't care. If they DF me my, only concern is that I will be cut off from my family who are still in the Borg. I'm hopeful however that they will see the evil of the WTS themselves and choose not to obey the rules.
I refuse to be intimidated by the WTS any longer. I've left 3 years ago and they have still had me living in fear of disfellowshiping. It sucks! I will stand it no more.
Mackin
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What tree are you?
by gsx1138 ini happened to post this very subject in the wrong forum but here it is now.
i thought this was kinda cool.
it is based off of the druid calender which is basically the gregorian calender.
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Mackin
This is soooo NOT me!!!!
Rowan Tree
The Sensitivity - Full of charm, cheerful, gifted, without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.Well maybe these bits: without egoism, is both dependent and independent, good taste, passionate, emotional, good company.
But none of the bad stuff applies to me.
