Donny, looks like we have something in common. I also used the references in their literature and the public library to learn TTATT. I was studying the Creation book on my own and went to the library to look up the references.
While I was DFed I spent my time trying to “make the truth my own”. That was something I never did while I was being raised a dub. While I would never have frequented an apostate site like this I was ok with talking to agnostics and atheists in an aol chat room. Yes I said AOL! I was sure that the truth would triumph so I began reading up on creation using the Creation book and much to my surprise many of the quotes and references they used in that book were from crackpots.
Interestingly (or maybe not) Shortly after my study of the Creation book, the next three public talks at my KH were all the same talk about creation by three different people. It was one of the more spiritual things I remember in my life. By the third talk I was really thinking that somebody had to be trying to tell me something. After that it was hard not to be critical of just about anything that was said from the stage or their literature.
Another time I applied for reinstatement and one of the elders said to me “its the truth, its the truth, its the truth!”. I remember thinking who is he trying to convince? I’m not sure if this was before or after the previous experience.