Thanks Eman. You've put forward some thoughts here that have made me re-evalaute all the people I know who have "left the truth".
I have often wondered recently how I would be thought of by my friends and family when I take the plunge and leave it all behind - and those thoughts terrify me to the extent that I've been thinking of putting it off...again!
I don't plan on ever doing drugs, becoming a raving boozer or becoming promiscuous - I don't believe that JWs have a monopoly on morals - they just think they do! All I want is to get out asap. How about faking my own death?