realist
Absolutely true. I would never admit to my doubts (I think they're a little more than doubts actually) to my family and friends in the troof.
I even spout garbage from the platform, and in my WT answers too, that I simply don't agree with at all!
This is the way it is. I have no idea how many people out there are like me, but it's tough being trapped in something you don't want to be in.