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  Can't sleep... Feel so alone!

  by Free!! in

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  sorry, i am just feeling alone and needed to vent..... i hate the fact that i allow jws to control me for so long and now i have no friends!

  i mean, i do have a few, but at moments like this when my head is spinning like a thousand miles per hour, there is noone i can call and trust and talk to.... my friends all have their lives, and the few that i can call, i am afraid to do so... again, i know i said this before, but jw ruined my social skills... .

  i want to scream!!!

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  My encounter today.....

  by Free!! in

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  let me start with: i havent been to a meeting in almost 2 years, i am "inactive" and the only contact i have w the jw is the an open minded jw friend who i talk to....since i left, i have done what i want, travel, get my nose pierced again (had it pierced before i baptized but they gave me hell for it, even thought the bible doesnt say anything bad about nose piercings) and hang out w "wordly" friends who smoke, drink and swear.... i don't smoke but lately i have been giving this friend a ride and he is a-pack a day type of guy... he left his pack in my car yesterday..... so, i am working evenings this week on a special project, and this morning i decided to run some errands.

  i was hungry so i stopped at macdonalds to grab some coffee... i placed my order thru the drive thru and pull over to the pay window, as i look for the money the drive-thru attendant says "wow, hello free!

  ", i look up and omfg one of the brothers from my congo... i acted like normal (sorry but i dont get nervous of agitated when i see a jw, i just dont give a dang) and smiled and made short conversation, while he is tellng me how much he misses seeing me at the hall, i see his eyes going between my piercing, my jet black goth hair and the pack of cigarettes on my passenger seat.... .

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  One thing the WT taught me...

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  hypocrites and liars can go to h3ll for all i care!!!

  animals are so much better companions!!

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  I want to go to the UK and Canada... recommendations?

  by Free!! in

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  ok everyone i am going to canada soon, vancouver to be exact, i was wondering if anyone can recommend places to go??

  i love sight seeing and i want to take advantage of my time there (almost a week)... so what would u recommend?.

  also i am planning a 1-2 week trip to the uk in october or maybe december, i know they are many uk posters here.... also, i want to take advantage to the max of my time there.. i want to go to those hidden treasures in the country side... maybe 1 day or 2 in london, but i want to see the wonderful uk country side... want to stop by scotland and ireland if possible... .

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  reading a life time of WT literatrash = College education

  by Free!! in

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  2. bible

  or at least that's what my super jw ex-roommate told me when i try to have an adult discussion w her about the importance of a higher education... according to her (a girl that never finished hs because it was not necessary) she has a better education than any college graduate because the jehovah has used the borg literatrash to teach her many many important things.... she says her knowledge of the "truth" is the equivalent of my 4 years of college education..... .

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  is there a cure for stupid???!!

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  I need help! i am in social limbo!

  by Free!! in

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  i was wondering if some of you can give me some advice in how to get over the fact that i feel so inadequate when trying to make new friends!!

  since i left the borg i have only made about 2-3 close friends... the wts ruined my social skills and i am so depressed because i am afraid of the real world... i know i am ready to move on... but i dont know how.. i feel like i dont belong in there but i dont belong out here either... i am in social limbo.. and it sucks to have no friends.. .

  when i was in i hated the weekends because i was basically forced to go to service, now i hate the weekends because if the few friends i have are busy w their families or partners i am stuck all by myself... :( please give me some pointers i feel super lonely!

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  Ughz!! cannot stand the ignorance!!

  by Free!! in

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  2. experiences

  so, i think i am about ready to write my da letter... i am freaking done w this cult.... .

  yesterday i went over to pick up some $$ from my old jw roommate (cellphone contract!

  ) and we started talking, since i am not df (yet) we still talk about regular stuff w/o a problem... she is almost 30, not exactly a model and not even remotely interested in going to school or getting a full time job (she wants to spend all of her time in the field circus because the end is near ::roll eyes::)... back to the story, while talking to her she started talking about this brother she rejected like 2 years ago, but now she wants him back because she realized she is not going to find another man with such a small pool of options... the dude is almost border line apostate now (tehehehe) and rejected her... guess what was he reaction?

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  I finally did it!!

  by Free!! in

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  so, even thought i faded more than a year ago, i still had my wt "library" w me, i am talking about the actual books!

  dozens of them... well, this past week i have been thinking and talking to some (jw) friends and i realized i dont ever want to go back to that mess... so, i threw every single one of those books in the dumpster about 15 minutes ago... and it felt great!!

  i had 3 boxes of books, i mean trash.... and it while throwing in the dumpster i promise, i felt like i was throwing my anger with it... i feel renew... ready to start the 1st day of the rest of my life!!

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  Just got a message from one of my JW friends ::roll my eyes::

  by Free!! in

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  2. beliefs

  i had a friend in the borg that i love and miss (the only one i miss for real) she got married and because she begged me to atttend her wedding i showed up after a loooong time at the kh (that was october 2010, never went back!

  just for her i went that one time!

  well, even though i faded and have almost zero communication w the jws every once in a while we exchage emails, typicall "i miss you" "take care" and "how's your life" kind of stuff.. she is respectful of my decision and never asks to many questions, but i make sure i always let her know i am ok and happy... so, this past weekend i emailed her just to say hello, i check my email today and have this..... "i think about you all the time too free!!.

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  New Here!!

  by Free!! in

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  i've been watching from the sidelines for a while... reading about your experiences and it has helped me a lot!!!.

  i am a 27 yo girl, i converted into a jw @ 20, at was going thru a difficult time in my life and they bastards sucked me in!!!

  i did not realize how controlling things were going to get... about 1 year into my study i moved w another single sister and then baptize, looking back i think i went thru w baptism because i fell pressure by the "loving" congregation that wanted the best for me... i remember coming out of the pool and one of the brothers saying "another victim" and taking a pic of me... anyways, that wasn't the worst of it.... remember single female!!

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