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Where are you ?

by sunshineToo in

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in which part of the planet are you?

i'm in the sf bay area, ca, u.s.a. i have been there for 17 years.. how about you?

The Sun's Transit of Leo

by MrMoe in

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well, the sun is now in leo, and it just so happens the ruler of leo is... the sun!

so, this will have a large effect on many people's emotions and passions (if you buy into astrology.

july 23-august 23: the sun's transit of leo

Amanda - thanks for posting that. Got a question for you. My birthday is today - 23rd. In some places I am Cancer and in others I am Leo. I exhibit both to a 'T'. I am also told I am on the cusp. Where can I find info on the 'cusp', and it's effects?

Mimilly

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If you won the lottery?

by SpiceItUp in

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i was just sitting here at work fantasizing what i would do if i won the lottery.

first i would pay off all my bills, .

then i would donate to some very worthy causes...(i'm sure you can guess a couple of them).

Mimilly

Gosh - first I'd pay the bills.
After that - get my mom settled.
Pay tuition for my two girls and I to uni.
Buy a small farm with a large house so people could visit.
Approach local resources and anon. set a couple/few needy families up.
Cars - for my girls and I.
Groceries... it'd be cool to go grocery shopping and not watch the amount.
Trust funds for my girls and Mom.
Travel around the world to Apostofests
Get myself some new clothes.
If there's money after that... give alot of it away at random.

Edited by - Mimilly on 23 July 2002 16:50:48

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A loss of Life, A tribute to my nieces....

by Cassiline in

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thirteen years ago my nieces were murdered.

today is a hard day for me, remembering the phone call the shock and pain.

lives stolen in a moment.

Mimilly

((((((((((((((Dear sweet Cassi,))))))))))))))))))))

My whole soul froze when I read your post. I'm not often this deeply touched by posts since I've been through so much pain and loss myself, I am somewhat conditioned. I certainly care deeply about the posts I read, but yours went directly to my heart. I'm so sorry for your loss. Out of experience I know well that passing years do not take away that pain.

They definitely live on in your memory. If I could reach through my monitor to hug you - I most certainly would.

........ wordlessness.

Mimilly

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Little things in life that make you smile/happy

by Cappuccino OC in

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early this morning i noticed a couple of racoons in my back yard searching for food.

there's a huge park/forest in my back yard.

i quietly opened the door and left some treats for them.

Mimilly

I wish I could post my pics... darn. Things that make me smile - my two daughters, and my big dog Diego. He is the master of expressions with his droopy eyes, big droopy ears, big smile. Sometimes it's just the way he sleeps, or how he snuggles right up to me in bed and puts his big head on my chest. He kept that puppy smell and he's so soft. Every time he hears the fire engines scream by - he howls with them. If he's barking and I tell him to hush - he'll complain under his breath. It is hilarious. And when both my dogs play - well, there's a floor show here everyday.

With my girls all growed up and hardly home anymore - my two dogs are my heart's content. My cat Beaster, who has cancer but is flourishing, snuggles up with me at night and we hold paws. He'll reach out his paw so I can hold it. Then there's Doodles, my daughter's black neurotic cat, who acts like a June Bug at the deck door when he wants in. Oh - my fish Princess Suishi who sleeps in her castle in an upright position. Hugs - hugs are always reasons to smile.

THen there's the weather. Summer rains to dance in (really), and breezes to appreciate, cloud formations, the sound of the leaves on trees and even chillin with a cold diet coke. Hanging laundry on the line and watching it sway in the breeze .......Hey! - YOU started me on the little things. I LOVE the little things in life. Those are the things that fuel my spirit and I could go on and on. Yeppers. I'll stop here though - for your eyes' sake.

Mimilly (of the appreciative of the small things class) Cos it's the little things that make me smile. (edited to add that last part)

Edited by - Mimilly on 22 July 2002 10:55:56

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Shunned father's daughter disappeared wit...

by Rado Vleugel in

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difficult times worsen for shunned father.

***dying teen leaves canada for treatment***

the father of a teenaged leukemia patient who fought against blood transfusions for religious reasons is upset that his wife has taken their daughter out of the country to a secret location where she'll begin alternative treatments.. .

Mimilly

Just when one thought it couldn't get worse - this happens. That poor man. Those evil bastards at the WTS. ANd that mother. I'd like to have five minutes in a room with that one. As if a miracle cure can be found now.

I hope kidnapping charges can be laid. This is completely evil. Beyond horrible. It's scary what that lot is capable of.

Mimilly

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Fainting, seizures, vomiting - help!

by Mimilly in

my oldest daughter, beth, had her second episode yesterday and i'm now officially worried and am looking for someone in the medical community or someone who recognizes these symptoms.. her very first seizure was a febrile seizure, due to a high temp when she was a year old.

i doubt this has anything to do with the present stuff.. a few months ago, she fainted at work and seizured on the stairs, was taken by ambulance to the er.

she came home looking beat up from banging her head on the stairs, with a mild concussion.. yesterday, when she went to get on the bus, she felt it coming on again, and while she was able to somehow ward of the 'seizure', she blacked out before she could pay her fare.

Mimilly

As an update, Beth's bloodwork (quite extensive) has come back normal. She hasn't had any more of these episodes to date, but will still see a neurologist. She's eating better now, which is an improvment. Now if only I could get her to stop smoking...... oh well.

Thank you all for your caring and ideas.

hugs, Mimilly

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FAMILY ROOTS

by Satanus in

i have felt drawn back to the place i was born for the last year or two.

i would be interested if others feel a connection w the area where they were born or grew up.

is it home??

Mimilly

LadyLee - I also moved a great deal due to my father being a salesman with Simmons Mattresses Company. I was born in Montreal, Quebec. It was there that I watched my brother, Craig, get dragged and run over by a streetcleaner whose driver was hung over. My brother is buried on Mont Royal. We moved to Calgary within a year after that happened for a year, and then to Nova Scotia. I don't feel as though I am from anywhere. Both of my parents are from a seaside town in Cape Breton, Nova Scotia and my wonderful Grandparents lived there (my mom's parents). My mom now lives in the family home, just down the street from the ocean. It was the only place I had a bit of peace in an otherwise abusive childhood. I knew death at an early age, and while still young, my favorite aunts died, my grandparents - everyone but my father, who I would gladly give to have them back.

I travel to Montreal from time to time to visit my brother's grave. It's very peaceful there. I feel an attachment to Montreal because of him. He lives on in my heart. During one trip, we were driving in one of the areas in which we lived in (but I didn't consciously recognize) and we came to a cul-de-sac and it felt like my heart and the universe disolved. A horrible feeling. Then mom told me that is where Craig died. Something in me 'knew'. I don't visit THAT place - but where he is at rest. The other place I adore is where my mom is now, in the family home. So many good memories of loved ones long gone, but not forgotten. I ache to go there now. It is one of those places without industry, but one of the most beautiful places on earth (cabot trail). Since I didn't grow up a witness, my christmases there were amazing, with my cousin Jocelyn and I being two peas in a pod. We don't talk anymore, and I miss her.

I am always in envy of people who can sit and say "you remember so-and-so? he's related to...blah blah blah....?" That's community, where people knew people. I grew up isolated, and very alone.

Now I try to make my home where ever I'm at - but to visit THE family home, mom's place, definitely feels like going home because of my grandparents and memories of many aunts and cousins. (the ocean down the street doesn't hurt)

I'm babbling. I guess this struck a chord in me. Sorry. But thanks for listening.

Mimilly

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Do you hate me?

by SpiceItUp in

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perhaps i'm just a bit paranoid..but i get the feeling that there are a few posters that actually hate me (before its assumed--no i'm talking about lack of responses to my threads.. and no i am not talking about a disagreement of opinion) i am talking about a few posters that come across to me as very hateful in their responses.. and yes i know that not everyone here will like me (even though i'm so darn sweet and cute...lol) but it is an intense animosity vibe that i get and can't seem to shake.. maybe i am mistaken and maybe its just me..... but if there is anyone out there that does dislike me that much---i am curious as to why---only because i try to learn and grow everyday and your input would be especially valuable and probably essential to that -growth.. so whats the verdict---do you love me, hate me or just not care either way?.

sincerely yours,.

ps--this is in no way an ego thing--i really want to know!

Mimilly

Spice honey - I love you. You have an incredibly sweet heart and a powerful way with words when you express yourself. (as in the poem in another section) You are a very sensitive person, and I certainly can relate to the hesitations in wondering if others like you or not. Don't give anyone that power sweety. You are a treasure. I'm glad you started this thread so that those negative thoughts/feelings could be proven wrong - and next time they start playing in your heart or head - remember that feelings aren't always facts. You ARE a treasure.

Rosalyn - Welcome to the board! A lot of people here wonder if the length of the threads they begin have a reflection on them - but it doesn't. If you look at the number of people who actually 'look' at your thread - you'll see that it is higher than the actual replies to every thread. There are some threads here I haven't been able to reply to because they break my heart and when I go to type, it all goes blank. How does one type tears? (one of the subjects is Samantha Runnion) I also compete with computer time in my home, and there are many many reasons, but basically it is human nature to reply to the thread that strikes home to you, or that interests you at that moment and that you have the heart and facts to reply to. Rosalyn hon, feel free to email me.

great big hugs to you Spice - my email is always open to ya love. I think we've alot in common.

Mimilly

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READ MY MOLESTER'S LETTER NOW!

by morrisamb in

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to read my father's (my abuser) letter:.

click on link: a letter from my molester .

Mimilly

(((((((((((((Donald and Partner))))))))))))))

I read that incredibly weird letter. His rationalization and blaming were bizarre at best. I'm so happy for you that you were able to summon the strength to write this book - I will definitely read it. As I read that letter, it reminded me of my father, in the rationalizing and blaming, but that's what they do - isn't it..

It is considerably difficult for one to put their darkest secrets out for the public to see, and yet, you will help SO many people by your strength and tenacity in hanging in there. I wish I could reach out and hug you - heck, I wish I could take away all the horror that you have been through. I know what that horror is like, and how hard it is to summon the strength to live through one more day.

As Canadian law goes, I suffered from a hand's off policy. It was all put under 'domestic situation', and they did nothing. Had my father done those things today - he would have paid dearly.

I wish you a contented life Donald. An inner peace that you deserve to have. Although I do not 'know' you, I am very proud of your achievement, on all levels. Take care in knowing that you have much support here.

hugs and love,

Mimilly