I disassociated myself for sure after visiting the WT headquarters in NYC - I saw that their only focus is to sell magazines and books. After leaving I couldn't even heard the term "religion" and really didn't believe in God for a while but due to certain events that made realize that the Watchtower Corporation is in reality a publishing corporation making money out of the faith of the people, I started to think about "God" ... to make the story short I went to buy a bible at Half Price Books and started reading, it was like I was reading the bible for the first time I started praying and my mind and heart changed ... I suffered a lot during this period thou, I spent a couple of months crying over the WT deception I've discovered, crying for all the "wasted" time, all the suffering growing up in my disfunctional JW family. I remember buying a bible with Jesus' words in RED because I wanted to read only what Jesus's said. I was not interested in the apostles' comments. Then I read the books of Genesis and Revelation (beginning and end of the bible). I cannot explain it was like something was teaching me all this things about Jesus, I experienced love, joy, real happiness like I never knew before ... I was set free from the WT bondage.
I remember very well as a child really liking God but hating the god the WT preached. The god that was going to kill even the orphan children leaving in the streets (yeah my mom told me so when I was a child) I was rebelious, I actually got baptized when I was 26, way late for someone raised in that religion. So perhaps in my case I really wanted to have a relationship with God and found my way to Him after leaving the WT, others may not have that spiritual need. But if anybody wonders about what is the truth in all of this ... the truth is not an organization the Truth is a person - JESUS. And to be totally honest for the benefit of those searching for what the TRUTH is ... I still have my reservations as far as what the apostles may say about certain things - they were imperfect humans too ... but what convinced me about the bible is its accurate prophecy (and not as revealed by the WT) --- no other book can claim the same. My advice to anyone out there looking for something, read the bible and ask the Holy Spirit to teach you, to reveal things to you
I am not a member of any Christian church but I am not afraid to visit any of them. I learn so much about real Christianity not Sects like JWs. Whenever I can I go to Lakewood Church here in Houston (actually Lakewood has many services and group bible studies not only what you see on TV), sometimes I go to Second Baptist for different bible based seminars for couples, children, moms .. and recently my kids asked me to find a church close to home where they can have fellowship with other young christians and sure enough we enjoy attending The River UMC - we meet in an elementary school on Sundays. Sometimes I cannot help but start crying when I see all the things I learn in these churches, real stuff for real people living real lives in Jesus and helping others in the community and abroad. I have come to love the Body of Christ, all Christians spreaded all over the world. It has taken me 40 years to finally feel like a person that matters, with a voice, with a choice, loved by the Father and Jesus. I call those 40 years, my years in the wilderness ... now I have found my Promised Land. Reminds me of another person who spent 50 years in the WT, not he calls this time his Jubilee ... awesome! Call me crazy ... but I made Jesus my Lord and Savior (not the Watchtower Corporation).