Is it possible to find a bit of yourself in each posters observations?
PSacremento - You are right in that is is about helping one another in love (or that is how it SHOULD BE)
Wonderment - I appreciate your analytical appraisal. In the end, I want to be accurate, not just "mad" at the JWs so thank you for being so fair in your post!
JWGoneBad - that is EXACTLY how I feel. Worse when I go and better when I dont. Can you believe there was a point where I thought the relief I felt when meetings were over was a good feeling about the meeting itself?
At least I know the difference now.
L3G- That is a warm and practical solution for people like myself, struggling to come to terms. Thank you for saying so!
Oubliette - I have yet to see you miss it EVER. You always call it. I am in the beginning phases of exactly what you describe. People are starting to fall off in their enthusiasm in direct relation to how many meetings I missed.
I am an easy person to be around usually, so I am trying not to take losing "friends" too personally!!!