I think you deserve the consideration of lots of follow up to "try to help you" even though I know you dont really want or need that.
Problem is, theyve got nothing.
They dont have any resources for helping people who have walked away.
I spent 40 years within and am now "without", gladly and by choice (what they would call inactive not DFd).
The most effort extended on my behalf has been by the lowly ones in the Kingdom Hall. And their attempts are woefully trite and composed of little one liners from the Org and emotional thoughts of their own.
Thats it.
As for Elders and C.O.s, they act stern as though I am a traitor (perhaps I am but how do they know that without asking?)
They also act a little afraid which is somewhat amusing.
Nice reading your thoughts on your own experience. I imagine many of us here can relate so very much to your words.