Excellent post, Sunshine. I agree with you too.
My feelings are that the Jehovah I used to worship is not God. My brother calls him "Hitler in the sky"........but he is an atheist too.
My God is loving and kind, and doesn't demand the constant sacrifice, and undying 'worship' and continuous communication, that Jehovah required. I am totally turned off by that name now.
I don't call my father by his name, but he is Dad. So God is Father, and that's that. My Dad let me grow up, and not need to ask his advice on everything, but if I were to want his advice, he is there for me. Bill Bowen has made some good points about that subject. Maybe he will post it one day. I totally agree with him. (Maybe he did it already.)
Marilyn (Mulan) who is coming around to thinking HE really is out there. Boy, it's been a long journey.