You are happy, Dave. You're a sweetie, you do have friends and people who care. You don't realize how happy you are. I've been in your place, taking my good life for granted. Then, something happens to put things in chaos, and I realize how lucky I've been in many ways (making my own luck much of the time).
For example, two years ago, my granddaughter, only 15 at the time, was hiding out with her boyfriend (a bad guy, to say the least). I had to hire a private detective to find her. Then I took out a huge loan to send her to a residential treatment facility. Now she's back home, much happier, and a senior in high school. I still have this huge debt, but am grateful that she is okay, so happy that she can function normally and have a mostly normal senior year and college in front of her.
Happiness stems from gratitude. All of us on this board have our lives back to do with as we wish. Oh, Dave, you are so happy!
Hugs,
Sandra