i was in a hospital bed and wouldn't sign some form that would have permitted blood if it became necessary so i had to leave i was in a quite a lot of pain. another member of my family was rushed to hospital by ambulance and i thought i would support them in not having blood they were bleeding real bad.
after i stopped going to the hall i had a discussion with a woman one day and felt bad about it. i regretted not getting an education and breaking up with a girlfriend once because she wasn't interested in the 'truth' and would have felt worse if someone had died and now i wasn't a witness