Posts by Ucantnome

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Farewell

by EdenOne in

"don't be dismayed by good-byes.

a farewell is necessary before you can meet again.

and meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends.

Astral Projection

by Black Man in

jw
friends

so what are your thoughts on astral projection?

have a co-worker who claims to know how to induce this on himself.

is he crazy?

Ucantnome

When my father died a customer told me he regularly leaves his body and not to be afraid of death and went on to describe where he'd been when he left his body.

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Had any weird dreams recently?

by LoveUniHateExams in

jw
friends

so, i'll go first.. i dreamt last night that i was still at uni, i said goodbye to one of my lecturers.

then ulrika jonsson (former weather girl, shooting stars captain, and swedish nymphomaniac) gave me a lift home in her car - wtf?!

she kept trying to change the cd whilst trying to drive (reaching on the floor, looking for a cd).

I've had two lucid dreams in recent years both i've found things in the dream that led me to the conclusion that this is a dream but i feel totally awake. I found it very strange. I also found it a little frightening. I wasn't sure how I was going to get out of it, as I felt awake. I closed my eyes in the dream and it was a struggle. It felt like how I felt once many years ago when i had to get something from the bottom of the swimming pool in the deep end at school. It seemed quite a deep pool with a high diving board and I wasn't a good swimmer (I can swim but i was put in the non swimmers group at school). I remember being a bit panicky on the way up, it seemed to take forever. I found the dreams weird

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Had any weird dreams recently?

by LoveUniHateExams in

jw
friends

so, i'll go first.. i dreamt last night that i was still at uni, i said goodbye to one of my lecturers.

then ulrika jonsson (former weather girl, shooting stars captain, and swedish nymphomaniac) gave me a lift home in her car - wtf?!

she kept trying to change the cd whilst trying to drive (reaching on the floor, looking for a cd).

Ucantnome

There are some people that I do work for and they live in big houses with swimming pools in their gardens. I have visited them several times over the years I once went there in the rain and another time on hot day when they were out so I took my clothes off and swam in their pool for a while. They didn't come home that time but when they do they often comment how they haven't seen me in a long time and they are right some times its years. I tell them I will see them more often but its been awhile now. It will be good to see them again whenever I dream of them again.

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3 words to describe.....

by punkofnice in

..your experience with the watchtower corporation:.

i'll start...... bully boy elders.

Ucantnome

Meetings more meetings

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Enjoying autumn

by kaik in

for some reason, i love autumn .

i always did as kid.

warm days, and cool nights, changing leaves, sunny days of the indian summer or eastern european equivalent called "grandma summer".

Ucantnome

I like all of the seasons for different reasons.

I like the seasons where I live now as the climate is not extreme. At one point in my life I lived in an area that had very warm summers and very cold winters. At another time I lived in a place that had what I believed is described as a Mediterranean climate. I like to see the difference in the seasons. When I was first living in the Mediterranean climate it seemed to be always the same and boring. After a few years I could see the more subtle changes that were not so apparent to me at first.

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How confident are you about various so called facts?

by slimboyfat in

no facts about the world are absolutely certain.

that being the case i wonder how others would rank amd rate their confidence in various factual statements about the world.

i am going to rate my confidence in ten items of "knowledge" as a percentage.

Ucantnome

Fairly

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Which bible character do you hate the most?

by Bonsai in

the more i think about it, the more i feel an extreme dislike for the apostle paul.

he was on par with hitler in his treatment of the jews before he "saw the light".

he replaced jesus teachings of love and mercy with a more legalistic, pharisaical concept of devotion to god.. any evil person can come to believe in god and worship him if the scales were literally and miraculously removed from his eyes.

Ucantnome

When I was a JW I never liked the apostle Paul preferred Peter. Since I have left I really like Paul. I've read more of his letters. I've never liked King David that much.

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I Hate the Sound of the Word Jehovah

by cofty in

listening to clips of the latest manipulative video from the watchtower i realised how much i detest that word - jehovah.. sometimes i have thought it would be interesting to observe a meeting or part of a convention.

every time i heard that word i would be unable to stay in my seat.. i have a visceral reaction every time i hear it.

it stands for so much that i have contempt for.

Ucantnome

I like it. I find a warmth to it

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How have you felt since you learned TTATT?

by tornapart in

it's been 4 years since it happened to me.

an almost overnight experience.

i read ray franz coc in 3 days and that was it.

Ucantnome

How have I felt since I left the Witnesses?

It's been some years now and I am reaping what I have sown. Nothing to do with being a farmer although in High School on some test regarding what we were best suited to do for work. Mine was Farmer. I'd rather be dead. Probably it was a reflection of my Witness beliefs and hopes of living on a paradise earth growing fruit for all of eternity.

The big decisions I made in my life were structured around my faith in the good news that I was preaching as a Witness. My baptism, my marriage, my educatin, my work, my lack of a pension. I have reviewed the decisions I made and if I had to make them again with the same information I had available I would make the same choices based on how I understood faith and its demonstration. So I feel that I was not acting in a hypocritical fashion. Also in leaving the Witnesses it was based on me not being convinced any longer regarding the good news that we preached in relation to the events of 1914 and their meaning and so once again I feel somewhat good that I acted in an unhypocritical way although it was at a cost in friendships and a warm cosy place to continue my sleep on a Sunday morning. I did not read or have anything to do with what we viewed as apostates or apostate material before I left and I didn't have the internet, I don't think it was really in existence for most people at that time.

However, I do feel a sense of loss. I feel as if I lost time in my life. I didn't go on my first date until I was 21. I married later. I didn't prepare for a future in this life. I didn't pursue the work I wanted to do. Not farming. I missed several opportunities in my life that would have made me financially much more secure. Turning them down because I didn't need them as I wasn't planning a future in this system.

So it's a bit of a mix. I still have faith in God. That never diminished and in some ways being raised as a Witness contributed to that and I'm glad. My faith has helped in some difficult times. Leaving the Witnesses was a process and took some time. Although in one way as soon I as I stopped witnessing I was no longer a witness, I feel being a Jehovah's Witness will always be part of who I am.

So how do I feel? Depends on the day.