It's funny really, I recently got back in contact with a lapsed sister who I've known since childhood but had not seen for some time. I always thought the world of her and just recently I've realised just how much I've always loved her. She is also married but the time I have spent with her (nothing sexual or improper) has made me realise how good things could be. I shouldn't covet another mans wife (aparently) but if I had the chance then I would give everything I have to be with her. I know she's not completely happy where she is and I just know that she's the one that occupies that special place in my heart and anything short of her won't do. At least that is how I feel. Spending just a little time with her has changed everything. Surely the gods won't deny me just a little happiness.
Yes I know I'm contradicting myself and I know that my situation has driven me a little bit mad. Just a little.