I don't believe in any god.
Would I be happy if there was something, and there was some type of afterlife.. SURE!
But there is no indication in any way there is anything out there.
Just because we tiny microbes in a vast universe cant explain where life came from, where the universe came from, does in no way give evidence that there is a god.
Sadly, after almost 5 decades of being sure there was a loving god, that ship sailed and sank.
As a JW you were well taught how to find inconsistencies and holes in other religion (while not looking at your own), so I think its hard for an XJW to move to another false religion.