I thought I had won the best lottery ever.
Looking back it really gave me licence to blow off many normal responsibilities because ...
A. they were not spiritual activities,
B. the new system would come soon so I didn't have to worry about my future,
C. because it is easy to become totally lazy about life when you are told the most important thing you can do is wander around your neighbourhood knocking on empty homes and looking for your next coffee break spot.