Aunt Connie,..
Hang in there, you are on your way and realizing that you are in a cult is a BIG step forward in getting out. And that is what a person should do when they come to the realization that they are in a cult right, get out?
I had just started a thread over at jehovaswitnessrecovery.com a few minutes ago and this url was still in my "copy" and it seems to fit in real nice here so I will do my best to place it here also. Try to view the video with the WTBTS and the time spent there in mind.
Keep up the good work with clearing your mind of the decades of indoctrination.
NJY