Hey man. Welcome.
I'm Still in though mentally awake. I Was born and raise in the Truth. 7 years of Full Time Service including Bethel. Former MS. On the verge of being recommended again though. (Was already told it was coming next CO visit.). I know it'll be very surprising to the elders when I turn it down.
For years I've been wanting to be reappointed. But now that I'm awake, that's when Holy Spirit decides to kick in? Goes to show its all BS.
If you haven't already, look into reading Crisis of Conscience. (Google "Crisis of Conscience PDF" and you'll find a free download.)
its an excellent book and helped to solidify all the feelings I had about the Truth.