Happy b-day th...33 huh, well monday I'm jumping off of 33 into oblivion.
Posts by obiwan
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When you see yourself in the mirror.....................
by Jesika inthe reason i ask is because some days, i really like the way i look or what i see.
then other days, i am fat, my nose is just huge, and my skin looks like crap!!
i am just wondering if .....................
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obiwan
I don't like to look in the mirror, I really don't like what I see. Maybe it's the org in my head still but I really feel like I've failed greatly. Keep in mind I have a house, car, job ya know the usual stuff, But as some of you can relate when you have to start over with a completely new life you tend to change things that you did before and unfortunately they can be for the worse. I had good skills when it came to making friends but after the df I had a hard time trusting people. Soknow I feel life is just one big motion.
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I'm Done With This Site
by LB inback when i joined the site i had lots of concerns and i was given some great advice by some special people here.
i'll miss you.
but the time has come for me to move on.
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obiwan
LB, happy trails dude.
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Do You Regard This Place As A Rehab Centre?
by Englishman into clarify:.
on this site, and others, i regularly come across people who say they are "moving on", or "getting a life for themselves", or simply stating that they have "outgrown this place".. now, i'm not talking about people who have simply got bored with posting, or are cheesed off with someone else and decide not to post anymore.
i'm talking about ex's who have come here purely as some sort of therapy exercise and believe that, once recovery is achieved, that "moving on" is a necessary conclusion to their re-adjustment back to normality.. in other words, like sandra bullock believed in "28 days", they assume that leaving is a sign that they are no longer operating dysfunctionally.
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obiwan
I have definitely had some rehab from people on this forum, it tells me I'm not alone and other people can relate with the trauma from the org. It has helped me put some things to rest.
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Take A Break
by obiwan inok, there has been so much talk and worry over the war that i thought a new topic was in order.. what does everyone have planned for summer vacation, i mean spring has sprung, summer is not to far off.
what kind of fun does everyone have planned?
any new goals for summer, new places or people?.
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obiwan
Ok, there has been so much talk and worry over the war that I thought a new topic was in order.
What does everyone have planned for summer vacation, I mean spring has sprung, summer is not to far off. What kind of fun does everyone have planned? Any new goals for summer, new places or people?
Let's get excited!
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Say goodbye...Armaggedon 15/ 05/ 03
by refiners fire inive been looking at an interesting site by a woman who receives transmissions from aliens called the zeta.
apparently the world as we know it will end may 15th when planet nibiru / marduk passes so close to our earth that an apocalypse will occur.
it last passed by when the noachian flood occurred.
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obiwan
Does the year 1975 ring any bells?
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Is it just me or does anyone else....Mr.Moe
by SheilaM in.
on american idol doesn't kimberly caldwell remind you of moe?????
just wondering if i was the only one that thinks this.. sheila
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obiwan
Well at least we will be able to say we knew her before she was famous.
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I NEED you all's opinion!!! Please read................................
by Jesika ini just got off the phone with cruzanheart.
she told me about someone i knew that passed away.
i don't remember her very well, but i remember she was very nice and very humble.
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obiwan
Closure is sooo important, if you don't do what your heart desires you will have many regrets.I suggest you take a little blanket sit down have your own private conversation and a good cry, this may sound a little melodramatic but you will feel so much better in the morning.
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obiwan
Hey thanks Fire Dragon and thank you to everyone else who knows the same kind of pain.Francois, I have had some counseling but it was more directed at my time as a dub. I have to say that because of my youth and that kind of treatment I do have more sympathy for children with bad homes or homeless people for that matter sometimes crap happens through no fault of your own and your on the streets. I have seen some people on here post that if your homeless that you did something in your past situation to cause it, absolutely untrue I've been homeless twice, once for my father and once for being df'd ( I was living with some dub "friends" ).
The small children who's parents treat them like crap just makes me shake my head in disbelief. But you know what rally scares me is children copy what there parents do and see, thats one reason why I don't want children I know, I know people will say your not your father but think about it, how many of us have said "when I have children I won't treat them like that"....and then one day you find you do the same things your parents did. I've not even mentioned the abuse I suffered or saw my mother suffer. How can anyone believe in anything when you see that kind of treatment.
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obiwan
I was 18 when my dad kicked me out, he has the idea that when your 18 his job is done and your gone. To make matters worse he kicked me out 6 months after my mom died, my mother always said that I could stay as long as I like, well when she was gone nothing was in his way and the sucky excuse he used was that my romm wasn't kept clean enough. Of course the reason my room was so messy is that I was working full time and my car broke down so I was working on it every day for a week to grt it fixed. I even went to the elders with him to try and straighten out the whole thing and would you believe he had a note pad with all kinds of crap wriiten down so he could "cover" his bases! The elders were amazed at my fathers attitude and when my father stated that he looked at me as a friend and when I got older I would understand one of the elders put his hand on my knee and looked at my father and said "well if I were Louis I would be very hurt by that", my father didn't say anything. Whew! Sorry for the rant it just gets my blood boiling, after all these years I still don't understand.