Read "Crisis of Conscience" by Ray Franz. In the final chapter (Perspective) you will hear thoughts and logic that will touch your heart. Try to read the whole book....it is a bit tedious at times, but an extremely worthwhile read. You will feel validated and more in touch with yourself and God if you take it cover to cover. I've been out 7 1/2 years and it was truly, as they say, 'a breath of fresh air'.......just what you need to get the repugnant, stale, and death-dealing WT teachings out of your soul.
All the best to you.
Mauiboy