My hugs for you, Hollywood.
I am so sorry to hear about what you've gone through and are going through right now. Like what Tenacious said, slowly surround yourself with people of similar interests so that you have space to breathe and be yourself.
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Hello everyone! I am new here and want to tell you about myself - my bio
by Hollywood20 ingrew up in east la in a bad neighborhood to a black mother and white father.
i never knew my father because he died in a car accident when i was a few weeks old.
my mother converted as a jw soon after when two sisters came to her door and offered her comfort, which was something she needed.
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The Psychological Manipulation of the Watchtower.
by The Rebel inwhen someone interacts with you they can influence your thoughts and also manipulate your thinking.
i became aware that this is what i was doing with householders on the ministry.
we chipped away at householders with manipulation, and called it a return call.
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I always felt sick to the stomach when trying to "preach" to someone while doing the field serve-us because it was like a practical exam, an exercise of what was taught at the kingdumb hall essentially as ways to hook people, let their guard down, and manipulate them by sweet words and love bombing.
Because my self-esteem had begun to diminish when I joined this cult, I tried to avoid talking when meeting householders and let my pioneer partner do it. And as I stood beside them I felt sorry for the householder because he/she was being promised the paradise, everlasting life, but at a great cost to his/her sanity and entire life in the future.
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Hey everybody! Just droppin' in :)
by macys init feels so good to be free from the jdub cult!
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Welcome to the forum, macys!
I'm glad you are finally free. If your circumstances permit we'd like to ask you to stand... ooops. I mean, let us your hear your stories if you can share.
Happy to have you here.
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My First Birthday.....
by The Marvster ini awoken today and realised immidiately i'm 44 today... and after 3 years of being out, decided to acknowledge my birthday.... i'm off out to treat myself to a big hearty breakfast with cup of tea in the local weatherspoon's by the massive pond full of weird bird-life, later today i'm giving myself a gift of a 90 minute relaxation session in a float tank down by canary wharf in london.... only really have 2 close friends (it's a slow process trusting people agian) and they probably won't be able to see me today, but i'm sure i'll have a belated surprise from them both.... the first thing i did when i remembered was to rush to the computer, connect to the web and put on stevie wonder's 'happy birthday', as i listen to it, tears stream down my face... all those years of my life stolen ' but..... i'm free....'.
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Happy Birthday dear Marvste rš¼
Happy Birthday to you!! š¶š°
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Paranoia after today's Watchtower
by Truthexplorer inboy oh boy did i feel paranoid at today's wt.
not only are we to watch our associations outside of the congregation, but also watch our associations 'within' the congregation.
this was emphasised by the wt study conductor.
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Paragraphs 9,10
"The world's media is evil. Do not read and expose yourselves to it. They will be destroyed!!"
Paragraph 11
"How blessed are you that we, the GB, has been feeding you with magazines, tracts, etc. We are the chosen ones. Now, come on why don't you thank us for it?"
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Scale of 1 to 10. How did/do you rate the meetings!
by Truthexplorer in1. boring as s***e 2. extremely boring 3. boring as hell 4. boring.
5. slightly boring 6. not bad.
7. fair.
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Are you truly happy?
by onightdivine infor the lurkers and active jws here, are you really happy about the recent changes?.
are you happy where you are now?.
does it make you feel special that you are more "privileged" than non-jws or other jws who have less preaching hours than you do?.
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For the lurkers and active JWs here, are you really happy about the recent changes?
Are you happy where you are now?
Does it make you feel special that you are more "privileged" than non-JWs or OTHER JWs who have less preaching hours than you do?
How can you tell that Jehovah is happy?
Why is the GB so sure that they are making Jehovah happy?
How can you be sure that GB is God's channel of communication on earth?
Do you still remember how to LOVE and to be LOVED unconditionally??
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Scale of 1 to 10. How did/do you rate the meetings!
by Truthexplorer in1. boring as s***e 2. extremely boring 3. boring as hell 4. boring.
5. slightly boring 6. not bad.
7. fair.
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Village Idiot:
I don't look around that much when a talk or a Watchtower indoctrination sessiob is on-going. I'm still afraid my face says it all that all other people can notice lol.
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Scale of 1 to 10. How did/do you rate the meetings!
by Truthexplorer in1. boring as s***e 2. extremely boring 3. boring as hell 4. boring.
5. slightly boring 6. not bad.
7. fair.
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Inasmuch as I'd still "prefer" to attend to maintain "good standing" in this increasingly paranoid org, no.. the speaker and WT conducter can easily figure out my feelings.
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Hubby has been doing research on the internet!!!!
by atacrossroads inmy husband was recently subjected to an intervention by his parents.
i am apparently a danger to his spirituality.
after i stopped attending meetings and went apostate hubby decided to resign as a ms to spend more time with me.
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Hello. That is indeed good news! I am happy to read these stories. I don't have any JW family members but I also hope that my "close friends" in the org wake up. I care about them, too.
