everyone knows i "was" involved with a dub for a very long time, he was my best friend, we had so much in common, sans religion.
i cared for him more than i ever cared for anyone ever before in my life.
i must admit i still do, always will, in my heart.
Butalbee-
Reading your post, I finally realized what it is that has a hold on you about this guy.
He seems fixable.
It's a woman thing. We are nurses by nature and we want to fix those who are broken. It's natural, but, as your mind has already told you, it's not good. You know in your mind that you need to look away. The problem is that your heart keeps stealing glances.
LOOK AWAY!!!
You know it's the right thing to do.
Just my thoughts.
Good Luck
-P(J)
a lot of experiences have been written about elders spying on people, tailing them in cars, etc.
i think this may have once happened to me, but am not sure if my intuition was correct or if my mind was just playing tricks.
i sometimes have some paranoia as a result of the trauma of being in the jws, so i am not sure what to believe.
I can honestly say that I never ratted anyone out, but, at the time I was made to feel bad about that, because evidently my concience wasn't doing it's job too well.
Oh well, in the end, it worked out quite nicely.
-P(J)
my most painful confession
note to simon: i will use some expletives, but i hope that they will be retained as this is intended to be an otherwise civil and thoughtful post to all my fellow ex-jws.
please read on, as this is most painful.
Jim -
You will be missed, as I'm sure you know. I'm a little late in seeing this, but I had to tell you that I have looked forward to your posts and will miss reading them.
I hope you are able to overcome your heart disease and live a happy and healthy life. Please come back a long time from now and update us on your wonderful progress. I know you will do well.
((((((Jim))))))
All thoughts are with you. Good luck in the future.
-P(J)
well friends, it seems to be over.
some of you may remember i fell in love with a jw (before i had any idea of what i was getting into).
it's been almost two years ago and i tried every way i could think of to see what she sees, historically, doctrinally, evangelistically, liguistically, every way but realistically.
Sorry for your loss Gig. You know you are lucky to find out early. Be happy. Be free.
((((((Gig))))))
-P(J)
what is it about american women?.
they sound so sexy!.
i've had a few conversations with american posters lately, and found it to be a highly enjoyable experience, but the ladies voices!
E-man,
I'm an american woman, and I must admit, I know nothing gets me more hot and bothered than an accent. (*Growl*) I just love them.
-P(J)
Edited by - pandora on 11 December 2002 13:56:56
i'm only to page 130 - so perhaps my questions will be answered further down the line, but i don't want to wait to get to the end of the book!!!.
why were neither n. knorr nor f.franz reproved for their obvious vocal dissension with the governing body?
if any r/f member had acted the way they had, they would have been df'd.
I think the main point of COC is to show just how manly and not godly this orginization actually is. And I think you are actually get the point quite well.
'nough said
-P(J)
i resumed my smoking habit about a year before i left the borg.
i've been on and off of cigarettes since that time.
i'm trying to quit (again).
Meadow-
Wanted to comment on your feeling of crappiness. I felt it too. It was explained to me in this way. When you smoke, the nicotine dampens the cilia in your lungs, so that they don't respond as readily to the buildup going on in your lungs. When you quit smoking the cilia begin to regain conciousness, so to speak. The ones that were destroyed begin to grow back also. So now all this cilia starts doing its job again. Its job being to get all the crap out of your lungs. So you feel pretty crappy at first.
Good news is, it doesn't last that long. My last cigerette was on October 6th of this year. I used the patch for 4 days and realized I was prolonging the pain. For two weeks after I took that last patch off, you could say I was the evil b***ch from hell. I seriously had violent thoughts. But it broke 2 weeks to the day like a bad fever. I have been level headed since. But I seriously thought I needed therapy there for a bit. But in that time I can honestly say that I didn't give a SERIOUS thought to starting up again. Granted, I craved them VERY badly. But I knew that the answer to my problem was not lighting another cigerette. So I didn't. I don't honestly know how.
At this point, I still crave them, but, I guess I don't crave them as often. I sometimes think I could have 'just one'. Thankfully, I haven't tried. I still consider myself a smoker. Even though it is getting to the point where I can't be in the same room with a real smoker. So I guess somewhere down the road my brain will realize that my lungs quit smoking and I won't think of myself that way anymore. Everyday, I smell something new. It is amazing what your nose can smell given no cigerette smoke to contend with.
In closing, IT WAS WORTH IT. Don't stop trying. The following is hanging on my refrigerator at home. It helped me, maybe it could help you.
What Happens When You Quit Smoking?Within 30 minutes of quitting smoking, your pulse rate slows down and blood pressure drops toward normal.
Within hours of stopping, the level of carbon monoxide in your blood drops, enabling the blood to carry more oxygen.
Two days after quitting, nerve endings begin to recover and your sense of smell and taste begin to return.
Within 72 hours of quitting, your lungs bronchial tubes expand and lung volume increases.
Months after quitting, shortness of breath diminishes.
In the first year, the risk of heart attack attributed to smoking declines for both men and women.
Two to three years after quitting, the risk of heart attack attributed to smoking is virtually gone.
After 10 years, the risk of developing cancer is about the same as for nonsmokers.
-Distributed under license. Parlay International 1640.030
-P(J)
i just got off the phone with carla.
carla and paula's mother has just passed away.
carla said that paula had been checking her post on and off all through the night and that it gave her much comfort in knowing that so many replied and showed that they cared.
(((((((Paula & Carla)))))))))
My thoughts are with you on this sorrowful occasion.
-P(J)
i have never been on a forum before.
i was very happy to find this one while i was doing my research finding out the truth about the religion & just trying to heal from such a damaging religion.
i was raised in it from birth by a devout witness mother.
Hi Leah
I love Emeril too!!! Addicted to FoodTV.
Welcome to the board. Our stories are very similar. Never baptised. Thank God! HAHA! Left when I was 17 or so. Thought it was the truth until I was 30. My mother? Very devout. Still.
But I have Sisters too. We all left. All, but my mom. Recently lost one of my sisters due to her being reassimulated. She and my mother are very happy now.
If you wanna talk, Just email me.
-P(J)
i just love this stuff.
they hit that whole "true christian" thing right on the head.
hahaha.
I just love this stuff. They hit that whole "True Christian" thing right on the head. HAHAHA
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