Hi Neva,
You have a lot to think about. One, is your own future. Do you plan to get a good education? Have you considered how to make a living for a family if you don't?
You seem open to ideas. Many who have responded here left for reasons of freedom from oppression. My reason is very different (many others have it too).
Short bio: I was a JW for 28 years and read the bible cover-to-cover 5 times in the past 6 years. Never missed a magazine article and read each of the JW books at least twice. Some 4 times.
The beginning of my questions:
1. The distinct difference between the Hebrew and Greek scriptures with regard to demons. In the Hebrew, there's nary a mention of demons and especially demon-possession. The Greek scriptures are full of them.
2. The existence of predatory dinasours. According to the Awake and other sources, no humans existed in the days of the dinasours. Bible implies violence in nature due to Adam's sin (Gen. 1:30 all creation ate vegetation). However--and this is the fatal flaw IMO--dinasours were NOT all vegetation-eaters. Adam's sin had nothing to do with it. Why would a loving God design such a vicious, suffering-filled existence for the animals? That would be a paradise?
SO, I started my own investigation and read books about evolution NOT written by the WTBS. I left immediately, embarrassed I had wasted so much time as a JW and I hadn't double-checked their info by reading even one book by a scientist expert in biology and evolution.
I suffered because of my credulity for 28 years. Don't waste your valuable time and energies because you're too lazy or afraid to make your own search.
As others have stated, the proof against the WTBS-recommended way of life is abundant in their own history and the history of the Bible. There are many archeological proofs for the Hebrews' borrowing their religious beliefs from surrounding nations.
If you are interested, please e-mail me and I'll give you a list of the books I have read.
Your entire future depends on the decisions you make. Don't wait till you're a grandparent like me to do the proper investigation
Sincerely,
Pat