Ray:
-no family atmosphere , just jealousy, competition, envy, backbiting, criticism,criticism,criticism, I feel disgusted and discouraged.
It sounds like a family atmosphere to me. Once you get behind closed doors ANYWHERE - you're going to find craziness. Some here would like you to think that this is unique to JW's or that it is somehow worse at the Kingdom Hall.
Humans love the kind of politics, wrangling, competition, envy, power struggles, cheating, coalitions, cliques that emerge from a close community of about 100-120. You see, that's exactly the size of group that our Bonobo-like ancestors evolved in. Our brains can't deal with groups much larger because we couldn't keep track of all the sublte transactions and figure out where we rank in the hierarchy.
These are the things we sit back and watch on TV after a hard day of politics, wrangling, competition etc. Soap operas, cop shows, courtroom, boardroom,reality TV are entertaining because they mirror our daily struggle.
If you like the organization of people you are hanging with you can help bandage the wounded. Or pick another group of people. Chances are if they are a closeknitt community they are going to end up in the same kind of territorial fighting. You see it on line in this group. Some like Bill Bowen other hate Bill Bowen. Bill was a stubborn player in his local congregation and he goes out of his way to bully people in his OWN organization. Some like Farkel - Others hate Farkel (actually I don't know anyone who hates Farkel)
Leave the organization - but leave it for the right reasons - doctrinal error. If you join another group you'll have to start at the bottom and claw your way to a higher level on the ladder.
As you can see - I'm not much of a fan of those who just want to moan & groan about not enough LUUUUUV.