I would go back tommorow if they would have me for I miss many of the Brothers and sisters so much, going through the triaks and tribiulations of the truth bonds people together in the way war does, I find it just isnt as real in the world, life and people are easy and shallow.
However, they would not have me, I cannot lie to others and it would be even harder to lie to myself to admit to believing in thier doctrines of men, though I do think the trurh would actually be easier to endure as you would now be able to ignore all the propogander such as "Jehovah is going to kill you any day now because you dont do enough hours in order to earn your salvation".