Whilst I can be of no help to you in your sad situation Terry, I can thank you that confirmations of what I was allways worried about when an active, has helped me, you see I was very very fond of a Sister, for the only time in my life I thought I had a chance of Love and family, but the Elders put her off as she was a Pioneer and I wasnt, afterwards, she did finish with me but then she tried to get me back, I refused her, and partly due to fears that you yourself have had materialise.
Yet I never forgave myself for denighing that only chance of happiness that ever came my way, for nearly 20 years I have been in a living death, your Revelations help me realise I was actually saved from an even greater unhappiness if I had wed a woman whose Love was very conditional indeed.