I understand you. I love the people on this board, but I also feel like my attatchment to this place kills me a little. I think part of us even when we are out of the organization has such an ingrained need to be a part of it (opposition is a part) and so we end up here. Now many come here, not so much because they hate the organization, but for the support. That, to me is very important and healthy when leaving behind something that was likely a huge part of your life. Being here, for me, makes me angry about things I shouln't even be involved in. I have learned enough that it would take a blow to the head to get me to knock on someones door ever again, yet I still come here, several times a day. I guess its a form of therapy. But it makes me hate them more. It hasn't happened yet, but it will, i'll mess up and get in someones radar and get disfellowshipped, and then they will take away my family. And its all bullshit, but I used to believe it, and be judgemental as they were, and I hate myself looking back. There's people I want to look up and call and just say, "hey your human, i'm human, live and let live, don't let anyone tell you any different". Maybe I should.
Anyway, I got off track, I think you would have to be so over it tha you just loose interest in anything JW, in order for the hate to go away. I'm not there yet.