That's true orphan, there's definitely a difference there.
Maybe there was something lacking in his life, he didn't have a father maybe... Needed a patriarch. Or he sorely wants to see a dead loved one on paradise earth. That's the only way I can make sense of it, that he wanted to believe very badly for some reason.
I haven't been out of the religion as long as this forum has been here, KH, but I believe you that we are probably talking about the same issues discussed then. Being torn apart from your family for simply not agreeing with them religiously kind of does that to people. Makes us frustrated at the religion controlling them, makes us want to speculate on when it will be over so that we can have them back. We just want or families back.