The shift in my thinking was gradual, I had always had strong doubts. I have a questioning mind and never took in information without questioning it. However, I tried to make it work and just go along with it most of my life. My parents are very devout witnesses. Eventually though I couldn't stand it anymore. I had my own family and they were growing up. I didn't want them to feel pressure to be baptized and repeat this cycle. I wanted them to be free. Many factors were involved, but I started reading the bible on my own. My eyes were opened, as yours are now open. I read had many of the same thoughts as you, about the scriptures. I felt a very deep connection to Jesus. I felt strongly that all who accept him as their savior should partake at the memorial. It is so clear in the bible. After passing the emblems along one memorial, I promised to myself and to him I would never reject him again. We were able to move, which helped a lot with the fade. My parents and brother are still in and hardly talk to me. I researched a whole lot about which church to choose...I like to worship with others. As long as you don't go extreme, they are very similar with slight differences. I couldn't quite accept Catholicism with its rosaries and Mary worship which is unbiblical (on the other hand, witnesses NEVER talk about her! Funny.)..I chose a liberal denominational church and have been there a good number of years now. One person there annoys me, but I figure that will happen anywhere I go. For you I recommend worshipping at a church because I read your other post and you need friends, as I did. But take your time and pray about it. Keep your receptors open and God will help you find the way as he did me.
