You can have that weight lifted from your shoulders by choosing JWlite. Things have changed recently and those who left years ago don’t understand how much things have changed.
I can see some toxic advice on these forums from xJWs who did hard exit and advise others to do the same because it makes them feel better about their decision. Misery loves company.
The best advice is not to do a hard exit because you will be shunned for the rest of your life by all JWs.
Just do a soft exit either become inactive and still go to meetings/ministry or fade completely and stop everything if that’s what you want.
Do it in a smart way. Don’t write a letter and don’t go and say something that will get you shunned.
It’s surprising these days what you can say and stay Jwlite. For example asking others in the congregation “have you ever doubted the GB?” Depending on how they answer you could take it either way by saying “yes we know the are not inspired or infallible they are just doing their best”
or you could push a little more if you feel you may be talking to someone else who is also jwlite.
For me I want to keep a hope that the Bibles promises may have some truth to them, but I don’t think anyone has the correct understanding or interpretation’s especially not JWs. But JWs are great people and it’s a great social club. As time goes on more and more are like me.